Dᴜᴀʟɪᴛʏ - I.M ᴄʜᴀɴɢ ᴋʏᴜɴ ᴍᴏɴsᴛᴀ x

6

knock, knock, knock

As I stood there in my room I heard someone loudly knocking on my bedroom door, I was halfway through fixing my makeup but I decided I looked decent enough so I walked across the room to answer it. "hang on a second" I called out as more knocking came from the hardwood door, god they're persistent. 

"what- oh...hey Ho Seok" I spoke softly, moving to the side so he could enter my room. "what's wrong?" he asked as he walked across my room and sat down on my bed, leaning his elbows on his knees as he looked up at me. 

"nothing's wrong-" I tried to defend but he cut me off, "you never greet me as Ho Seok...always Won, or WonWon...so I know somethings up" he argued as I nervously played with the hem of my shirt. 

"it's just..." my eyes wandered over to the small polaroids that plastered my desk, photo's of my childhood alongside Joo Heon and Changkyun...Ho Seok noticed where my eyes were fixated and let out a deep sigh. "you still love him, don't you" he voiced as he stood up and picked up one of the photo's, my voice caught in my throat but I managed to let out a small 'yes' before breaking down once more. 

"Shh it's okay, everything will be alright...there are things that happened a long time ago and he's scared to put you in danger, but that doesn't mean he doesn't care about you still otherwise he would have left completely by now" Ho Seok explained as he soothingly patted my head, reassuring me that things would be alright. 

"you don't know that...if he really cared so much he would tell me why" I cried harder as Ho Seok brought me into a tight hug, rubbing circles onto my back as he leaned his chin on top of my head. "I know a little more than you think...but it's not my place to explain alright" he moved away before wiping one of my fallen tears. 

"let me help you, your makeup is ruined" 

After helping me clean up Ho Seok convinced me to come down to the party since my dear brother Joo Heon was being a big old baby, the drunken idiot kept begging the boys to find me and bring me to him so he could tell me about how he won at Call Of Duty against Hyungwon.

"god...to think we're related" I wandered out loud as Ho Seok and I entered the party, Joo Heon was demanding Hyun Woo gives him a piggy-back ride. "SHOOOOOWWWWWNNNNUUUUU" Joo Heon yelled out Hyun Woo's nickname as he clung to the taller males shoulders while jumping up and down, "let me up thereeeeeeee!!!" he cried out as he stepped up onto the arm of the couch, trying his best to climb onto Hyun Woo's shoulders. 

"Someone...please get this gremlin off of me" Hyun Woo begged as people who filled the apartment made their way into the living room, filming my mess of a brother who was acting childish as all hell. 

"Joohoney?" I tapped on his shoulder as he fell down the back of none other than Hyun Woo once more after the 10th attempt at climbing the mountain man. 

"My dearest sister, y/n!!! I missed you, did Wonho here tell you how I kicked Hyungwonnie at C.O.D?" he yelled through the house as people started to laugh at his actions. I would say I got second-hand embarrassment but he does this every time he throws a party, getting drunk and making a fool of himself. 

"yes Joo, he did" I said sternly earning a pout from my older brother, "am I in trouble? you sound mad" he slurred his words as he hugged me a little too tight for comfort. "Joo, you're not in trouble but let go of me" I scolded him for hugging me too tightly. 

Everything was all fine until he broke down-

"I'm sorry y/n, I just wanted to protect you, my baby sister...but...I let him hurt you and now here I am hurting you by being a shitty brother-" he cried, small sniffles coming from him as he sat on the couch. His sudden outburst of emotion causing some people to leave but only a few- 

I looked around the room trying to make sure no one was filming him crying, it would actually hurt his ego if he saw that once he was sober. As I glanced around my eyes locked with those of Kyun, his eyes boring into me as I held my brother close to me. Joo Heon noticed him to as abruptly stood up, his emotions switching from sadness to rage as he stormed over towards the younger male. 

"MY PAIN...HER PAIN...it's...your fault, you know...I CAN'T STAND SEEING YOU. BECAUSE IT ALL FUCKING HURTS TOO MUCH" he screamed into Kyuns face but before he could throw a punch Hyun Woo pulled him back, "I think you've had enough to drink for tonight Joo...c'mon let's go for a walk and you can cool off, maybe sober up a bit yeah?" after pulling my drunken brother away from Kyun and out of the apartment I was left to apologize to Kyun for Joo Heon's actions.

I couldn't not apologize to him...I felt bad, Joo Heon said some mean things that even hurt me to hear so I can't imagine how Kyun feels right now. "Kyun...I'm...sorry for what he said" I stuttered with my words but he knew I meant them sincerely.

He was about to answer when a girl came out of nowhere, linking her arm with his before opening her mouth and saying "you ready to get out of this place?" her tone was seductive as she lightly traced circles onto his bicep. The action alone made me gag but the words that she spoke...they broke my heart. I knew he slept around but after our interactions as of late, I thought he valued what we had again...that he would try to fix what we had. 

"yeah baby...give me a second" he disconnected their arms before walking me over to the kitchen, his hand was placed lightly on my back but I flinched at the sudden contact...after seeing her his touch felt cold, strange even. 

"hey...ah, it's okay about your brother, I mean I understand his point so I don't blame him or anything" he spoke calmly, acting like everything was good between us...which I knew they weren't. "you know...I kind of take back that apology, you deserve to know how much it hurts. The fact Joo Heon has sat up late at night helping me as I cried, helping me get over the fact someone who I trusted so dearly hurt me? Someone he called his best friend! It has to hurt him every day to see you...the fact that you meant so much to the both of us but you just cut us off?? you're selfish ChangKyun, forever and always" I spat as I turned around and angrily leaving the room. 

Pushing past the rest of the boys who were huddled in the lounge room listening in, all of their mouths left agape as I snapped at Kyun. 

Maybe he can finally get it through his thick skull that we care about him still, even after all this time of him being an absolute dick.