Love is Equal (Chardre)

Chapter 24

Picture of Evgeniya Radilova as Rosica Tzvetanova ^^

**Leo's POV**

Later on in the week, Charlie and I went to a psychologist. In one of the rooms, we met with Rosica Tzvetanova.

"Hello, Leo and Charlie," she greeted us. "Take a seat." We sat in front of the desk, and she sat behind. "Okay, so what brings you two here today?"

"Well, Charlie and I have been in a relationship for a long time now but I feel like we're brothers and the sex feels off. It doesn't feel right," I replied.

"And what's happened in between the time you've known each other, to now?" She asked.

"Well my dad took us to America for 2 weeks together, we shared a room and a bed. We've also been to my dad's house together, in England, for another 2 weeks. And then Charlie slept round mine last night," I replied.

"It seems like you're spending too much time together. I've always had families here and rarely have had relationship couples here, so... You two are the first to actually come forward and try to make changes to the problem in your relationship. I should ask questions, but I don't know where to start," She replied. She stopped speaking for a minute. "So, how did you two meet?"

"We met at school," I started. " Charlie used to be a bit mean to me so I didn't really like that. He was part of the popular crowd but it turned me on for some reason. Because he was that guy, it was quite hard to resist him."

"So, how was he mean to you? What did he do to you?" Rosica asked.

"He hit me and punched me," I answered. "But because of the other boys that bullied me, I was used to the pain."

"Did you do anything in response to the bullying and how?" She asked.  "Also, why?"

"Yeah, I did," I replied. "But it wasn't towards them."

"So you've done something maybe on your body?" Rosica asked.

"Yeah."

"Sounds like self-harm," she replied. "I'll refer to a therapist for you, Leo, okay? I'm not that person to help you but we do have someone within this building that will." I nodded. "So Charlie, tell me a bit about moving?  Victoria mentioned that you've moved from England to here, Port Talbot, right?" He nodded. "Did it affect you?"

"Yeah, it did," Charlie replied. "I left my friends back in England and, because I didn't have any friends, the popular lot just kind of took me into their gang and. I was alright until I met Leo. I liked him but I didn't want to admit it to myself. I wasn't openly gay and I felt like if I had a crush on him, then I would have to come out because it was what he wanted. In order for us to have started dating, I had to come out. I remember coming out to my mum and she didn't really listen, I just assumed that she was listening but she wasn't listening properly. So I went on my first date with Leo and when I got back, we had a fight, a verbal fight, and she wasn't particularly nice because she found out that I had gone on a date with a guy. I ended up packing my bags and just left, I went over the road to Leo's and had a panic attack. He helped me calm down and he suggested I should live with my aunt, because it would be safer and is further away from my mum's house than Leo's."

"Going back to the bullying, did you ever fight back to Charlie because you liked him, Leo?" She asked.

"Yeah, I did fight back," I responded. "This one time in the bathroom, I stood up to him. I didn't understand that some people may bully because they like you or because they've gone through similar things. Charlie helped me to realise that."

"Charlie, how exactly did you respond to Leo's fight?" Rosica asked.

"I just wanted to shut him up," he replied. " I wanted to see if I really was gay so I kissed him and it felt good."

"So you mentioned the sex? It feels off?" She asked, changing the subject.

"Leo told me after we had did it on the sofa," Charlie informed her.

"Okay," she replied. "So what do you think you can do in order to improve the sex and your relationship?"

"Leo said that when I beat him up, it turned him on, so I could playfully hit him or spank him," Charlie suggested. "We're safe when it comes to sex, by the way. Better safe than sorry, right?"

"Of course, exactly, Charlie," she smiled. "It's good to hear that. Leo, I'll refer you to a therapist and that will pull you away from Charlie for a bit so your relationship is more healthy."

"Thank you," I replied.

After the session ended, Charlie and I went home.