Past the Point of No Return

Chapter 4

It didn't post before so I added it here :))

Erik's POV:
I was laying on the floor of my house on the underground lake beneath the opera house. Daroga had been trying to help me get over "that girl", as we have begun to call her to make it less painful. Every once in awhile Daroga will spontaneously say her name to see how I'm improving.

I've only learned to accept the fact that she's not coming back. Ever. Daroga won't give me any updates on her and the fop, which told me all I needed to know.

They had children.

Even though he didn't directly say it, I knew.

A single tear fell from my eye and ran down to right above my ear. I gave a sad and disappointed sigh.

"Erik must get a grip. Erik must learn that Chr- that girl will be far happier with the boy than she will with him," I said, talking in third person as I do when I get depressed. Then and idea struck me.

I sat up and stared at my organ. Thankfully, no one believed the managers or that reached boy, so the police did not come searching for me. They did not know that I really existed.

I got up and walked over to my organ, lightly running my fingers over the keys. I sat down and began to play. Singing and playing music always helped me cope with my emotions.

I dreamed a dream of a time gone bye.
When hop was high and life worth living.

I stopped and cleared my throat. I was a bit rusty since I haven't sung in 8 years.

I restarted.

I dreamed a dream of a time gone bye.
When hope was high and life worth living.

I dreamed that love would
Never die

I put all my heartache and pain into the music.

I dreamed that God would be forgiving.

I spat the words out with hatred. How could I have even thought that there was a God in a world like this, where my life was so unfair.

When I was young and unafraid.
When dreams were made, and used, and wasted.

I took a deep breath and put power behind the next lyrics.

There was no ransom to be paid.

Then lowered my volume and sung with grief.

No song unsung.
No wine untasted.

But the tigers come at night.
With their voice as soft as thunder.
As they these your hope apart.

I sang that with hatred and anger in my voice. Then I sang with heartache again.

As they turn your dreams
To shame.

I did a perfect crescendo, progressively getting louder as I belted the last note, letting some of my emotions out, saving most of them for later in the song.

She spent the summer
By my side.

She filled my days with endless wonder.

I sang this part with longing and sorrow, remembering all the good times I had with Christine. But then that all turned to anger when I remembered what she did and roared the next few lines.

She took my childhood
In her strife
But she was gone when Autum came.

I gathered all of emotions, raising them up so they can all swell within my chest and let all of my emotions out, letting them flow with the music.

And still I dream she'll come to me!

And we would live the years together!

But there are dreams that cannot be!

I began crying at this part. The pain was almost too much, but I needed to finish the song.

And there are storms we cannot weather!

I played the small instrumental on my organ, than sang with renewed passion as I remembered how I thought my life would be when I was a small child and still thought for some reason that my mother loved me.

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this HELL I'M LIVING!
SO DIFFERENT NOW
THAN WHat it seemed.

I did a decrescendo at the end, reeling in for the end of the song. I almost whispered the last phrase of the song.

And life has killed

The dream

I dreamed.

I played some ending cords on the organ and finished the song. Feeling much better than I did, having let my anger out, but I was filled with so much sadness. I hung my head and just marinated in my sorrow for a bit, then jumped almost a foot in the air when I heard someone start clapping softly. I whipped around and saw Christine.

I couldn't believe it. Christine was here? But... why? She had the Count. She was a Countess. She had children I was sure. Why would she come back? I was in utter disbelief.

"C-Christine?" I asked in a wavering voice, my mouth starting to tremble a bit and my eyes watering, but I didn't dare let them flow.

"Hi, Erik," she replied hesitantly, a sad smile on her face. "I came back. I love you, Erik. I never should have gone with Raoul. I only just realized my mistake," she explained.

I should have known better, but I sprang up from my seat at my organ and raced to her.

She opened her arms and took a few steps toward me. I opened my arms to hug her, but when I closed my arms to embrace her, she disappeared into mist.

"No," I said. "No no no... Christine! CHRISTINE!!!"

I fell to the floor and began sobbing, my heart breaking all over again. I collapsed onto the floor and let my sobs take over and rack my body, just letting my self cry, not caring about how loud I was or who could hear me.

"Christine..... why??? Why did you leave me???" I sobbed, but it was hardly understandable.

I don't know how long I was sobbing for, but when I was done, I was exhausted. I fell asleep right there in the floor, tears and some snot running down my face.

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Hey guys!!! How did you like this chapter? I was waiting to use "I dreamed a Dream" for so long. The rest just kind of flowed out😅

Anyway, how much did you guys cry? Did you cry at all? Did I successfully rip your heart out and shred it to pieces? Please let me know in the comments!<3

I hope you guys have a good rest of your day/night/morning!!!

-AJU