I woke up and put on my baggy sweatshirt. I had to wear baggy long sleeved shirts all the time to cover the scars I had given myself. One was fresh from just last night.
I was inspecting myself in the mirror when I saw a blue light. "Hey Five." I said turning around to see my bestfriend, Five, who I may or may not have a huge crush on, standing in front of me.
"Hey y/n." He said walking over to me. "Whatcha doing?" He asked standing behind me as we both looked in the mirror.
"Oh nothing." I said.
"I got you something." He told me. I looked at him, confused to why he would get me a gift. It wasn't my birthday. It wasn't a special day at all.
"Oh really? Why?" I asked looking into his beautiful green eyes. "Just cuz." He said handing me a bag. "Go change." He said as I took the bag.
"Um- Okay." I said. When I got to the bathroom I opened the bag, revealing a pair of jeans and a cute crop top. It was short sleeved. I put on the jeans and the top but then put my sweatshirt back on and went back to my room.
"Wow Five I love it its-" Five cut me off.
"Why are you still wearing this?" He said walking over to me and gesturing to my sweatshirt.
" I like it." I said crossing my arms.
"y/n, I know that's not the reason why." He said.
"Fine. But I'm not taking it off." I said. He came over to me.
"y/n please? I wanted to get you something nice and I cant even see it?" I sighed and took it off, revealing my scars. "I knew it." He said grabbing my arm and inspecting my scars. "Who did this to you?" He asked, concerned.
"me..." I told him as tears began to form in my eyes.
"y/n...Why?" He said. The tears started to flow.
"I-I" I stuttered. "I- sometimes I just want to give up. There's no point on me being here. I don't mean anything got anybody." I sobbed and Five took me into his arms.
"Y/n y/n y/n." He said stroking my hair. "Do you have any idea what you mean to me?" He asked. I shook my head, still buried in his chest. "More than anybody. More than anything. Your my world." He told me. I looked up at him and he wiped my tears. "y/n, if you ever need to hurt yourself again please come into my room and hurt me instead. Don't hurt yourself, please." He said looking into my e/c eyes.
"I love you Five." I told him. "I know you don't love me but you need to know that I love you." He grabbed my face with his hands and put his lips on mine. After a minute he pulled away.
"I love you too dummy." He said kissing the tip of my nose. I knew at that point, this was the day.
I could stop hurting myself now.
