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"No your lying no" I shouted at the nurse as they gave me a look of sympathy , then I knew it was true
My husband of 3 years was taken away from me , my heart was broken . I was destroyed , "he can't leave me" I sobbed loudly into my twin sister tia's arms
"Tamera it's gonna be okay" she held me close to her , "y'all tryna tell me that this man passed away and saying it's gone be okay no I'm-not okay" I snatched away from her
"Calm down tamera ," she told me lowly, after days and days of not speaking about it
I posted a picture of us to my Instagram before closing my phone .
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tameramowrytwo I have cried everyday since I found out the news , my love I am heartbroken . I cannot believe I will no longer wake up to you every morning . I will miss you daily but I know you'll want me to live my life to the fullest . I'm afraid of loving again , without you by my side I don't know how I'll thrive in this world . I love you Hosea Chanchez . Mrs. Chanchez ❤️.
4 weeks later
"Tamera how are you doing" my mom asked me with Tia sitting next to her , "mommy" I said before breaking down again
"I can't believe he's gone , he left me" I broke down in their arms . "I'm so sorry sissy" Tia got teary eyed looking at me
"I miss him everyday" I calmed my cry's down . But still held a shaky voice . " I just wanna hug him one more time , tell him I Love him , kiss him , I just don't know" I pouted
"You don't know what love" my mom rubbed my back , " I don't know if Ill ever love again" I told her
"It's no time to be thinking about that my love , just focus on getting yourself together" she hugged me
6 months later
"Hi my love" I hugged my sister before sitting down at the table , "hi Jerome" I smiled at him
"You look so pretty and heathy tamera" he told me , "I feel heathy" I told him . "Cory what you doing" Tia looked over at his phone
He moved it back , "boy" she snatched it looking at it , "oh" she handed it back "exactly I'm tryna work" he laughed
I looked over and saw he was reading a script "anyways how you doing hunny you about the situation " Tia asked me
"I'm okay" I looked at them for about 3 seconds before I began to cry , "sorry" I looked down , I looked over when Jerome tapped me
I grabbed the tissue he handed me . "You'll be okay tamera don't stress it" Cory told me and I smiled
"I just miss him everyday, I can't believe he walked out of my life , we never got to accomplish our dreams , have our kids , renew our vows it's just hard" I vented
"You'll find the one , one day" Jerome told me
1 year later
I frowned as I spoke with my therapist, "I want to be okay everyday but I can't because I'm not" I told her
"What do you feel when you see pictures of him" she asked me "I feel like my heart breaks every time I see his face" I told her
"so I want you to do something , I want you do slowly delete everything of him out of your life but not your heart" she said and I gave her a confused look
"Listen , when you ready you can but until now , just love yourself" she told me , I hugged her before leaving her office
