He Got What He Deserved

chapter 6

I had so much rage at this point I couldn't take it. It felt like I was on fire I mean the nerve to do what he just did after that night when I asked him to leave before letting him finish, who knows that could also be a stinking lie. That BASTERD! I turned to face him without thinking, before even knowing what I was going to do.

"Yeah right like I want to hear another lie come out your mouth, it's like your just emotionless you dont care how you hurt others and to think I still face you every day without hitting that smug grin of your face. You are NOTHING without gang! CAN YOU EVER JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!"

I yelled it in rage, I spoke so fast my mind couldn't even keep up. I didn't regret one word I said as I looked him dead in the eyes refusing to be the first to walk away this time, I stood like a statue with my arms folded in each other. After about two minutes Dennis walked past me and out the gate with his gang still looking at me in shock. I walked back into the school to go out to back so I didn't have to walk past everyone that was staring like freaks.
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It was a paced walk back because I didn't feel like being around people or talking to anyone. I felt good but bad at the same time and I'm not sure which one madd me feel more relieved. I got home unlocking the door fast and locking it again as I walked in. The cat was at the door but I just went upstairs and she followed shortly after as she noticed i needed her.

I felt dead inside, I took the glass of water that stood on my table and the tablet that was next to it. It was my antidepressants. I had been taking them for a while now but I started to feel as if they had no effect on my mind anymore.

I really didn't feel like facing anyone at the moment so I decided to stay home for the rest of the day. It felt like a long lull and the time felt like it wouldn't pass as I had kpop and jpop in my ears and my pencil on a piece of paper that lay infront of me and next to it lay my phone with an image I was copying from.

As I finished the drawing I looked at my phone to see that it had only been like 2 hours and I was hungry so I stood up and stretched for a few seconds then I headed to the cupboard to see what food I could drown the time in.

WHAT! there is nothing but an old moulded cracker in the corner. I can't believe it, I had to head to the shops again. It got me thinking... how much emotional eating had I been doing. I'd actually rather not answer that because I'll put myself in an even bigger state of depression and I didn't need that because me having to go to the store was enough.

I grabbed my backpack from behind the door and put the necessary in it... my wallet, a book and house keys which I would stick in after locking the door behind me.

As I left the yard with my backpack slung over my right shoulder. About half way to the store I started doubting myself. Did I lock the door? Yeah I'm sure I did, I never leave without locking it. I tried not to think of it anymore otherwise I wouldn't want to go back home.

Before walking in the grocery store I put my hoodie on over my head to ovoid seeing anyone I knew and the other way around as well.

I love the Asian food isles I always go to them first or I dont even go to any of the others. I took some noodles and sushi with the little bit of money that I had left. I headed for one of the tills as a few voices cought my attention. I tried not to look in that direction but I did and I was not very surprised to see Dennis's gang looking at me and then wispering among themselves but there was something missing...

Where was Dennis? Could he be here or did his gang go without him? I didn't want to question it any further so I paid for my things, put them all in my bag and placing the house keys on top so when I get home I can just reach over my head and grab my keys with no struggle.

I was walking home with my hoodie still over my head to ovoid eye contact with anyone and everyone. I wasn't good with eye contact anyway, it definitely was not my strength.

"HEY WHATCH IT!" *THUD*

I raised my voice when someone bumped into me with quite a bit of force it was almost like they did it purposefully. As I turned to see who did it there were so many that I knew I wouldn't find them.

I continued walking home with all my things, I really wanted to listen to music but I am always afraid of something bad happening to me.

As I walked into the yard I looked up to see the front door slightly open.

My heart skipped a beat, no I'm pretty sure it was more than just one.