Two Sided Mate

Deltanor

I looked up towards Dark but I could see the tears start to form slightly. I was doing what's best for him, he had to face the facts that was blantly placed out in front of him. There was no saving me from going to Deltanors. I was a dangerous person especially my own wolf. I watched while his eyes went to his normal light blue eyes. Wolf glared harshly and confusingly. This was the only way, I was going to be sent to Deltanor once news traveled to Akim. There was no way I was getting out of this now. I couldn't endure the pain of rejection, I knew it would kill me. I looked away towards the door leading outside to the living room debating if I should sleep on the couch tonight. All of a sudden I was flung all the way across the room hitting the wall hard making me cough heavily from the instant lack of air. I looked up as I see Wolf standing in the middle of the room, seething with anger. I gulped he was beyond furious. He screamed out pissed.

"WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO TO HIM!!! HE WON'T EVEN TALK TO ME YOU FUCKING BITCH!"

Well there I have it, this was going to be hell from now on. Then tomorrow I get to have my life slowly sucked out of me till I die in a century of that torture of Deltanor. I picked up myself as I say softly

"Preventing myself from being hurt in the long run... I'm going for a walk."

I quickly got out of the room and began to walk in the shadows of the hallways. I headed outside to enjoy a little of the sun since it was now morning time. My heart felt as if it was falling into pieces. What have I done to myself. I found a tombstone near the side of the building as I sat on top of it watching the sun start to rise feeling the warmth of the sun rays. It was suppose to be a gorgeous day from what I had heard from time to time. I missed the sun yet I am part vampire so I do still burn twenty minutes after the sun rises. I took a deep breath, I was doing the right thing with Wolf right? I mean even though he is my everything I rather hurt him now then hurt him further down the line when Wolf rejects me. As well as the fact that, I will be sentenced to Deltanor tomorrow for attacking a master, two at that. I just can't take that pain... the pain of being rejected. I stood up stretching as I picked a flower and started heading back to my room while twirling the flower in my fingers. As I got closer to the room my head kept wondering if Dark would be waiting for me to return. I walked in I heard her laugh, her fake annoying giggle. Was.... was he actually serious? I heard another girls laugh as she moaned out 

"Oh god yes, Dark you're so fucking amazing.... Mm."

I heard Emilia's fake giggle as she says

"Mm. Right Lelia? Two is better than one... Mm Wolf don't stop."

My heart tugged in my chest, that means D.... Dark moved on so fucking easily. I growled slamming my fist into the wall next to me hearing the two girls gasp out in fear. I turned around walking out the door, slamming the door behind me walking away from the room. That fucking liar! He wanted me only to add to the list of girls he fucked here at Fall of Night. I was crumbling on the inside, how dare he say that we are mates and then pull a stunt off like this. Sure, I may have hurt his feelings by waiting for Wolf's approval yet... this was fifteen times worse. I had ended up walking straight to Tear's room staring at his door for several minutes. I heard my wolf chuckling deeply inside my head. I gulped a little, why not have some fun before I am tortured to death at Deltanor right? My wolf was aching to feel this, she wanted to feel me in pain, she wanted to feel pain again. I'm not going to get this chance to have fun before I die. I softly knock on the door as I heard a grumble as Tear answered his door with a shocked face. I think I was going to puke I was about to turn around yet My wolf took hold making me mustered up the courage to grab his face and kiss him. Tear wrapped his arms around my body immediately and dragged me into his webs.

I slipped on what was left of my clothes, Tear decided to rip my clothes into a more sluttier and appealing style for me since I was now a slut in his eyes. My legs were extremely sore as I slowly walked towards my room. My wolf was in bliss feeling the pain in our body yet I could feel the hurt from her even if she tried to hide it. I felt like crawling in a hole and rotting in there. Tear was extremely rough and a tad abusive. I could feel a little blood slowly dripping down my legs. I had bruises on my neck and sides, I guess Tear thought it was funny to get back at me from earlier that day. I think I might even have a cracked rib. This was definitely not what I had imagined for being my first time... I mean I thought my first time would have been with my mate. I wanted to cry but couldn't even muster up any tears I was so tired and in so much pain. I finally got to my room as her scent was filling my nose. My heart tightened as I heard my wolf's voice in the back of my head.