I mean you know how marrying yn was something really unexpected for me. And when I came to know that she likes me I couldn't deny to agree to this marriage. If I would've said no my dad would be really upset and wouldn't even give me the company. I thought maybe I could fall in love with her I mean I do like her but I don't know where this relationship is going. Everday I see her falling in love with me but I can't seem to reciprocate the feelings."
Lies. All lies. Entire life has been a lie. Oh how you wished being welcomed by the warm hug of your husband and every worry would vanish away from your memory like it never existed but here you were listening to your husband saying it was all just an act.
"I don't even know how to tell her this I-" his words came to a halt when he turned around while still talking to Jimin. Fear,guilt,horror,regret,remorse,terror.... words couldn't express the feelings which were slowly creeping up his body. How is that possible? Did she really hear all of it?
Maybe she did not. Maybe she just came now. Maybe just maybe. The word kept ringing in his head "maybe" A word seemed to feel so precious to him at the moment.
But all that went down hill when her quiet tears made him uneasy. Jimin turned around frantically when he didn't hear any more words coming out of friend's mouth.
Jimin noticed you standing there as he mouth gaped wide open "I- I'll take a leave"
Sensing the uneasiness and seriousness of the atmosphere he decided to take his leave.
Jimin had already left a few minutes back. You both stood there standing face to face but none of you spoke. Jungkook couldn't let out any words and your silence only made him more regretful.
Finally gaining some courage he decided to speak up "YN-" he cut himself off not knowing what to say. He himself doesn't know if all the words he uttered a few minutes ago were really true or not.
You slowly wiped your tears with the back of your hand.
Without glancing at him you decided to leave the place. "YN ,YN" he called your name out when he saw you leaving.
"Let go" you whispered out when he held your wrist "No no listen to me". "I SAID LET GO" and that was the first time in this whole month had he seen your this look. You were not mad you were completely broken and he assumed he was the reason for it.
You just left the house in the blink of an eye already buying a ticket to leave for home.
All along the flight you just kept sobbing. You were supposed to go there to let yourself relax,to feel loved,to feel wanted,to feel safe from the person who made you feel these things in just a month's span only to come to know it was all fake.
Taunts, anger, disgust, unwanted are all the emotions you have felt when you lived with your parents. And now your were lied to, shown fake care and most importantly "pitied" the word you hated the most.
After coming back to Korea you went to your parents house immediately. Even though you were not welcomed there but at least were told things face to face. When you told them that Jungkook was abroad they let you live for a few days without questions.
On the other hand Jungkook himself came back as soon as he could. Reaching his home he was frantically looking around when "Mom YN-" "Jungkook what are you doing here YN came to surprise you and you are back?" "Where is YN? Is she...not here"
"How would I know she was with you where is she?" But before she could get an answer he dashed out of the house.
Impatiently knocking at the door he stood in front of your house waiting for someone to open the door. The door opened "YN-" but it was Taehyung. "Hyung is YN here?" He called out attempting to step inside the house but was pushed harshly backwards instead.
"You motherfvcker!" He received a big punch on his face that made him fall down. Slowly getting up only fall down again "H-hyung!" "Don't call me that you are no one to me now. How dare you! How dare you hurt my sister like that!! I trusted you I trusted you JEON JUNGKOOK!!"
Breathing heavily Taehyung looked at him with tears in his eyes which only portrayed rage. "How can you?! Fvcking get out of my house!" "Hyung let me meet her once-" "I SAID OUT"
And Jungkook couldn't do anything but leave the house.
A few days rolled down but there was not a single minute when he didn't think about you or didn't try to approach and talk to you.
He would come every day only to be pushed out by Taehyung. How funny it was that none of your parents knew nothing about it all.
His face made you scrunch up your nose in anger but who were you lying to? You felt yourself falling in love with that guy every time he called you by your name,every time he winked at you just to tease you, every time he would make a flirty comment just to see your red cheeks, every time he would gently hold your hand and kiss the back of it to ensure you that he was here.
Thinking about all this still made you feel butterflies and a smile crept up on your lips but then realising how all that was fake made you tear up.
Jungkook was about to reach the cafe where Taehyung had called him. A sort of hope was what he felt at the moment. He had been a wreck past few days. Probably he finally realised how much importance you actually held in his life.
Every step he took, every time he closed his eyes, every time his family mentioned your name he felt his heart shattering. He didn't even know if you would ever forgive him.
Was he thinking about his words again?Did he actually fall in love with you or was it just because he was guilty?
Or was it because he was scared about his family's reaction or was he scared about your reaction?
His questions were just questions for now. Maybe he'll get an answer when he meets Taehyung once?
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Part 10-Arrange Marriage
