FORBIDDEN: Erwin Smith X Reader

ERWIN SMITH X READER

Chapter VIII

[FIVE YEARS AGO]

You sigh heavily while staring at the lamp. It's dark and you are alone in your house. Aside from the overwhelming darkness, your heart is filled with anxiety for Erwin. He's been carrying out a wall expedition mission and you are silently praying for him.

It's been months but you haven't confessed your feelings or anything. You want to do it but there's always an invisible chain that prevents you from doing such thing.

It hurts a lot when you can see the person you love, you can touch them and you can talk to them but you can't show how much they are dear to you.

Your feelings can't reach Erwin at all.

And maybe that's for the better. It is indeed for the better.

You flinch when you hear three knocks from the door. It's probably almost midnight and you're not really close with anyone except Erwin, so you don't know who's outside.

You get the pocket knife that Erwin gave you for protection as you walk towards the door. Knocks in the middle of the night traumatizes you.

It is where your family are—

"Who's in there?" You asked in a firm tone as you walk closer to the door. Your heart is beating fast. So fast that it wants to burst out of your chest.

You're scared.

You don't want to remember how your mother opens the door in the middle of the night revealing men in black coats with guns—

Your heart is beating fast in suffocation. You hate this feeling. You hate this agonizing trauma from something in the past. You hate it a lot.

"It's me, Erwin." The person outside replied and makes your eyes widened before opening it immediately.

You can feel your knees shaking from such fret but upon seeing him, you feel safe. Erwin is about to say something but you jump towards him and wrap your arms around his waist before hugging him tight.

So tight and you don't want to let go. You don't want to let him go. You don't want him to go.

Erwin is just standing there while letting you hug him. He's confuse with your actions but he know he needs to do something.

"(Y/N), is everything alright?" He whispered.

You nodded as you buried face head in his chest.

"You're shaking." Erwin added.