FORBIDDEN: Erwin Smith X Reader

ERWIN SMITH X READER

Chapter VII

[FIVE YEARS AGO]

"Congrats," You whispered while covering Erwin's eyes with your hands, "You did a great job, Commander."

Erwin smile when he feels your presence. You've been with him since the day he joined the Survey Corps, and you've been supporting him ever since. You are aware that it is Erwin's dream to prove his father's theory about the humanity beyond the walls and you are proud of him at this moment since he just become a new Commander.

"Thank you, (Y/N). What brought you here? I thought you need to prepare food for the Survey Corps?"

You are currently in Erwin's place. Though you're not yet a member of the Survey Corps, Commander Pixis assigned you to be the cook in order to feed the soldiers. It's been your job.

"I'm done with it," You stated, "And I want to congratulate you! I mean, I'm not surprise at all since I know how good you are in terms of leadership, but I want to spend some time with you, Erwin."

Erwin has been your friend, but for you, it's more than that. Your feelings for him has been growing as time passed by and now that he's the Commander of the Survey Corps, telling him your feeling become impossible.

It is a part of the Law inside the walls to prevent the Commander and the high ranking persons (except the King) to be engaged in any romantic relationships. In that way, they can devote their whole self in the service. The Law is also applicable to Erwin the moment he became a Commander.

If anyone finds out about the forbidden relationship with the officials, the official involve will be fired from the service and will later be assigned to work as a slave. The other person involve will be executed.

That's just how the law works.

And it only makes your confession to Erwin more impossible, not only because you are afraid of his rejection but also because his hard works might get dismissed if he loves you back.

"You've always been there for me," Erwin muttered as he lean in his chair. You sit beside him.

"I'm your fan." You replied and giggled.

I'm your fan and I love you.

But of course you will never say those words. It's not for your sake but for Erwin's sake. You don't want to ruin what he strives for.

"You can lean on me if you want to take a rest, (Y/N)."

Why is he making it a lot more difficult for the both of us?

"N-No, I'm good," You replied and avert your gazes, "Do you want to rest, perhaps?"

"Tell me to stop if I'm crossing the boundaries." Erwin stated in a serious tone as he slowly holds your hand.

You blink and your heart starts beating fast. What is this? What is he doing?

Erwin's hands fits perfectly in yours as he gently grasp your hands. He's sitting silently with his straight posture and you are tongue tied with what's happening.

"I'm serious, you can lean on me." He repeated without looking at you but you can feel him getting stiffed up which looks really cute.

You nodded and lean in his shoulder while still holding hands with him. You can feel him smile with what you did.

Now, you are resting calmly in Erwin's shoulders while holding his hands. It feels so good and you feel safe as well. It's all you can ask for.

"Commander," You started since you love calling him that, "I think I must start my training this year and join Survey Corps."

You badly want to be a soldier to help protect the wall from the titans, and in that way, you'll be able to be with Erwin more often. It's a win-win, with a 50 percent chance of getting eaten by a titan.

You can feel his body getting tensed up, "You should reconsider your decision, (Y/N). Survey Corps— it's not safe for you. You can join the Military Police or the Garrison Regiment." Erwin stated a in a calm manner.

"I don't think there's a safe place for me, Commander," You replied, "I'd rather deal with titans than deal with demons."

Erwin didn't say a word.

"Commander, titans aren't the one who killed my parents— humans are. The ones with the positions, to be exact. Guess what, Commander? Humans are more terrifying than titans."

You close your eyes as you gently lean in his strong shoulders. You always feel safe with Erwin's presence.

"Inside or outside the wall, there's no such thing as safe place. I might die someday, in a any possible means, but I want to spend my life being with you Erwin." You whispered.

Erwin stayed silent as he lets you rest in his arms.

"Ah, I'm sorry I'm being dramatic." You chuckled as you are about to stop yourself from leaning on him, "I shouldn't have—"

"If you want to walk in that path, I have no reason to stop you, (Y/N). But I will protect you with all my must." Erwin whispered as he wrapped his arms around your shoulders.

You blink in confusion with his actions.

"You'll be safe." He added and went closer to you before leaning in your shoulders with sincerity.

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