[24]I lean my forehead against Riku's, finally putting an end to our kiss.
"You okay?" he whispers once again. I only hum in response, my mind still too empty to form any kind of sentence.
He moves his hand up my bare skin a bit further, causing goosebumps to crawl onto my skin. I quickly grab his hand but don't attempt to move it away, I just hold it in place. "We should take it slow," I mumble, resisting the urge to place another kiss on his lips.
This whole situation is stunning and shocking to me. Never in my entire life has something that I was fearing so badly felt so damn right. I don't want to let him go. Is that normal? Does that mean I'm gay?
I mean, I've never been attracted to anyone at all since I never really had the energy to even think about things like that. So, I don't really know my sexuality. But right now, I don't really want to find out about it either. Right now, I only want to be with Riku, no matter how much I tried to deny it before.
Suddenly, the bell booms through the building signaling the beginning of third period. Slowly, I pull my head away and open my eyes, instantly meeting Riku's gaze. "I-I should go." He doesn't say anything but instead sends me a small nod and finally lets go of my waist.
I untangle myself from him and grab my bag before I carefully swing it over my shoulder. Sending him one last glance, I leave the room in silence. My mind feels more at peace now than before we kissed. It feels calm up there and not like a wave of emotions and thoughts is going to slam into me any second.
The only thing that bothers me right now is the growing urge that wants me to go back to him.
However, the urge is soon pushed aside when I spot Cooper in front of my locker, chatting with Kai and Gwen. Dread bubbles up in my stomach. The last time I saw him was- . . . I don't even know why he did what he did. I don't know why he wanted to be so close. But seeing him now makes me think of all the possibilities that could've driven him to do what he did.
Despite wanting to turn around and run in the opposite direction though, I continue walking into their direction with the hope that Kai's and Gwen's presence will stop him from doing anything stupid.
"Chase!" Gwen exclaims as soon as she catches sight of me, engulfing me into a hug. I awkwardly pat her on the back while my eyes are fixed on Cooper. He is staring at me with an undecipherable expression plastered on his face, resembling the one he had in the kitchen two weeks ago.
"I'm so glad you're fine now." Gwen beams at me after pulling back. In return, I shoot her a small, barely visible smile, which makes her grin widen even further.
"I'm also glad you're fine." My eyes snap to Cooper. The undecipherable look is gone, replaced by a sheepish one that spreads on his face as he scratches the back of his neck.
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Beautiful Addiction
Roman pour AdolescentsAfter his parents' sudden death, Chester Covington leaves everything behind and moves in with his aunt. But nobody knows what is going on behind the facadé of a traumatized boy who has watched his parents die that he puts up ever single day of his...