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DAY: | 💕 february 14, 2019 💕 TIME: 10:28 am WHERE: stokeley's new apartment
↝ STOKELEY GOULBOURNE ↜
JAHSEH AND I HAVE BEEN BROKEN up for four weeks now. honestly? i've never been better, i'm 'glowing' as my mom and mama cleo would say.
i struggled the first week right after the break up, i was in bed all day, i didn't really talk to anyone, and i barely ate anything.
but that was the only week i allowed myself to be that way, i refused to put anymore into that situation. the only communication we have is strictly about the baby. he tries to start that "i'm sorry" bs, but he won't fool me again.
i'm 8 1/2 weeks pregnant almost 9 weeks or 3 months. my belly is getting big! my mom and mama cleo were upset when i finally told them what happened at jahseh's party.
but nonetheless, they have been my biggest supporters besides symere and them. oh and the boys, but i mainly have been talking to kentrell. well as i call him, kenny.
even though he's mean as hell, he's also a big softie and he's like the big brother i never had. we have the best talks, i also have been spending time with my english partner from school.
his name is denzel. me and him have been getting really close but we've been friends even when i was with jahseh.
denzel has really been helpful these past few weeks. he helped me and my mom and the boys, except jahseh of course move in my new apartment.
and sometimes when i would catch myself feeling sad or sick from the pregnancy he would stay over. as far as jahseh? he wouldn't leave me alone for the first 3 weeks, but i told him straight up to cut all of that out.
i guess you could say since that happened i turned a little cold. see before that i was naive and thought everything was a fairytale. i though that jahseh was the most perfect human being ever, that he could do no wrong.
but he broke my heart and that part of me died. call me dramatic or whatever but i really loved that man. yes loved, don't get me wrong i have all the love in the world for him. i mean he gave me a gift that i thought i would never be able to have.
