Okay so in the first chapter I was saying my mind is all over the place and I can't think straight but I aint tell y'all why.
I THINK I have adhd. I think this because I've been reading into it and watching videos and uh all that stuff lined up with me. I be thinking about fifty things in a minute. I be thinking so much my brain hurt from thinking. But uh yeah I was reading about how it affects relationships and stuff and took some ss. I'll put it down if I can find em.
This be happening to me a lot. I want new friends all the time but once there's nothing to talk about more or like they just not talking to me I get so bored. I literally get so bored so easily and yeah. I heard self diagnosing is bad but it's also classist because people don't got the means to get diagnosed. But I also don't wanna say I have something and I don't but people out there really going through something you get me *in a British accent*. I also live in the Bronx so there's not really places to get diagnosed. I also googled it and it's like $200 to $1k. And more stuff I'll say more but I can't think of it rn lemme go google it and get more pictures.
I do want new friends but if you can keep a conversation and don't mind me asking mad questions.
How self diagnosis is classist. I can go on and on about this there might be a part 2.
I forget the dumbest things and I forget it so easily. I'll forget to text someone back or call them back. And then I'll keep remembering but not actually do it and keep forgetting. Sometimes I pay mad attention to stuff but then other times I be gone. Like I be feeling high sometimes but I don't even know what being high feels like😭. If you've smoked...tell me how it feel please🙂.
Sidetrack I use this emoji a lot🙂 and this🤨 and this🙁. Okay back to the subject.
I'm just writing this to get my thoughts in place idk if ya reading allat.
BUT IF ANY OF THIS HAPPENS TO YOU PLEASE TELL ME.
I'll prolly just update if I'm bored but yeah🧍🏾♀️there shall be a part 2 whenever I'm bored again.