Unrequited Love For You

...maybe some underaged drinking along the way.

*Flashback 1 year ago*

"What do you wanna be when you grow up, Jack?" Hannah asked me, making me look up from my sub sandwich. Me and the twins decided to share a cafeteria table; they were sitting on the left side while I sat alone on the other. Hannah's attention is on me, and Pax was drinking their lemonade silently with their full focus at something -- probably a new 'case' for Detective Pax.

I swallow the food in my mouth before answering her...actually, more like rumbling a reply because I didn't really give her a straight answer. I didn't have a clue why she would wanna know, maybe it's because I never told them what was my ambition. Her twin wants to be a homicide detective and she wants to become a criminal lawyer; quite a pair, no?

"You mean if we finish high school and get into college?" My next respond was more of babbling. "Hmm...I don't know...I never thought of that. I guess when I grow up, I want to be...nothing at all?" I chuckle at the slipped reference, although she probably think it was just an unsure answer. 

Pax gave me a small smirk before returning back to their target. Hannah pouts and flick a french fry to my face. Ow. I lightly rub the spot the french fry hit.

"Come on, Azaleas! There must something you've always dreamed of becoming!" she's whining like Lucile now, it only made me chuckle again at the mental comparison; she and Lucile does have some traits that made both similar. Oh well, there's no escape on this. 

"Alright...alright..." I started going through my memory lane that I tried so hard to forget. Then there was that memory, so old yet so clear; 5 year old me trying to imitate a cartoon character's voice. That's when it all started...my childhood and now-sunken career dream. 

"...I guess I wanted to become a voice actor , ever since I was little. So during my junior high years, I spent my whole days focused on acting, practicing my voice, and theater drama, saving money to getting into my dream college someday..." the dream of wanting to give my voice to character was so stupid. Cringing my fingers picked up the fry that has been thrown at me and started piercing the body with my nails.

"Hey that's awesome!" Hannah exclaimed with surprise and awe. "What happened then? What made you give up?" I didn't give her an answer after a couple beats of silence.

"...I grew up." -- that's the only thing that came out of me. But that was a lie and she probably knew it; she's not as attentive as her twin, but she knows a lie when she hears one. 

I still want to be a voice actor...but who would really wanna hire someone like me? My voice is too deep in an unsettling way for the smooth and masculine voice a typical male character needs, and my voice cracks whenever I try to high pitch so there is no hope on the female characters. My voice is too scary to voice cute animals and too soft to voice monsters. 

Even if I tried all my best, I just don't have what it takes; I'm obviously not made to be voicing characters, so what's the point?

"That's sad...still though, it's cool that you have acting skills. Could you imitate a character's voice for me?" Hannah's blue sea eyes sparkles, pleading...I swear those blue eyes the twins inherited will be the absolute end of me. 

"Sure, I know a decent amount."  I shrugged blankly while thinking, 'Just don't expect me to be good at it.' 

"Who do you want me to impersonate?"

"Hmm..." she pauses to consider for a minute, before snapping her fingers. "Aha! I know! I want you to impersonate..."

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