Sometimes, I just can't control my thoughts
No medication's never made them stop
All I think about is everything I'm not
Instead of all the things I should
'Cause sometimes I just feel like I'm a freak
When I wake up,
I just don't like what I see
Starting at all the imperfections I see
I wish that I thought differently
Wonder if I'll ever really change,
I'm scared they're all laughing at me,
So I make the joke first
If I beat them to the punchline,
Then I shouldn't get hurt
The voice inside my head that's telling me I'm okay
Entertain it for a second,
Then I push it away
Yeah, I swear to God I'm trying,
But I don't know how to be a good person to me
