Why Is It Just A Memory

Is This A NightMare..

It's cold...

Where am I...

It..feels weird. It's like I'm a sleep but awake.. is this a dream? It's like my thoughts are echoing...

"R.."

"Ri..."

Is someone calling my name... I here it.. where am I...

I feel so sleepy...

"Rin!" The young twin scoffs. "God damit where going to be late wake up!" The older twin slowly starts to open his eyes. "Wh..what?" His blurry vision starts to see the world clearer. "I said get up! We are going to be late for school" the angry teen pulls the covers off the older. "Rin I can't be late today I have a meeting to go to about you! So get a move on and get ready! I will be downstairs got it?!" Yukio raises his voice in a aggravated tone and then walks out the room after stating his directions. The confused older brother rubs his eyes and sits up in his bed and gets up grabs his school uniform and puts it on. What was that dream...
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"Rin ! Are you ready let's go ?!" Yukio yells down from the kitchen. Rin sighs and starts walking downstairs. What was that dream about... it felt so real and where was I..? What ever it was just a dream. But still I wonder...
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*Walking to school*

" Rin you take to long to get up in the morning it's becoming a problem" the glass face tried to explain calmly. " yeah I get it... whatever." Yukio is so dumb...can't he just leave me alone for once. " Rin what time did you go to bed last night ?." The curious younger brother asked. "12:30 why do you want to know." Blue haired boy says looking at the brown head. " because Rin if you can't get up in the morning then you need to go to bed earlier, I can't do this every morning" Yukio rubs the back of his head. " yeah whatever." Who does he think he is.? My mom, no I don't think so.
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*At regular school, Rin is in class and Yukio is in a meeting*

"All right class turn your books to page 45..." The tall man says out loud to the class. Rin gets lost in thought and blocks out all noise. Class sucks... there is no point in it I will never need this information in the future... even if I have one.. Rin shakes his head. No don't think like that...

"Ri..."

"Rin!"

Rin looks up from his desk at the old man. Rin lets out a sigh " Rin can you pay attention please I was asking if you can read page 52." Rin rolls his eyes " yeah no thanks" cant people just leave me alone to my thoughts. "It was not an option Rin" some of the students in the class let out a little laugh. " I said I don't want too get that through your dumb ass brain dip shit" Rin raises his voice and hits his desk with his hands in a fist. " Rin Okumara! Go to the principals office... Now!" The furious teacher yells pointing at the door. " yeah whatever" Rin rolls his eyes and grabs his bag and walks out of the room flipping everone off. What ever they can all suck it, I don't care about this place all I care about is becoming a exorcist that's all nothing more... right..?
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*After seeing the principal*

Seriously... Rin sighs. A 4 day suspension... shit what is Yukio going to say... I am sure they called him by now. What ever... I am going to just walk back to my dorm and wait for cram school.
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I knew this would happen... " I can't believe you Rin!! A 4 day suspension is not good on your record." Yukio rubs his temples. " God ! Do you even think ! What is with you lately your acting out and it's going to have consequences." God does he ever shut up. " honestly Yukio... I don't give a fuck. So back of my problems and go suck a fucking rats ass." Rin rolls over in bed and pulls the covers over his head. " what the hell is wrong with you Rin! Are you trying to get your self killed ! You know the Vadican is trying to find reasons to kill you." Yukio goes on about how he messed up. " maybe I am." Rin mumbles from under the covers. "Ugh... what ever just get ready for cram school we can continue are conversation about this later" Yukio stomps out of the room.
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I don't care... yeah.. I don't I just want it to be over... the never ending pain of being Unwanted.. I wish I could make this feel— Rin gets up and walks over to his desk drawer. Maybe...maybe this will help... He grabs a small razor blade from his pencil sharpener in the back of his drawer and takes it over to his bed and sits down. ...should..I..Yukio won't know...plus it's not a bad thing..right?..yeah. He pulls up his long sleeve shirt and and looks at his arm and puts the blade on his arm. ...why do I have to be a demon... just why..One slice. Two slice. He continues to rip up the skin on his wrist to the point where he starts to bleed. Shoot blood...ow.. yukio will sure find out if I have blood on my shirt.. he gets up and walks to the bathroom and washes his arms under water..it stinged at first but He got used to it after a little. All better he won't know... he freshens him self up, pulls his sleeves down and walks downs stairs with a somewhat hurt face on. "You ready?" Yukio says tilting his head a little. Rin looks at the ground and holds his cut arm tight. "Yes."
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*In Cram school*
Rin walks in the cram school class with yukio by his side. "Hey Rin!" A little blond girl says waving to him. "Yo! Shiemi" she looks happy today...that's good. Rin walks in and sits down at his desk and the younger twin goes to the front of the room and starts explaining what they will be doing for the day. "So Rin how is your day so far !" The little blond girl asked with her cheeks flushed with red. "Good" terrible actually. Rin fake smiles."That's good ! We have a test today, to be honest I am a little nervous." The little blond girl says with her hands in a fist bouncing in her seat. " A..test?.." Rin says fiddling his fingers. " Yeah ! Didn't you study ?" She looks down at Rins somewhat shaking hands. " yeah...yeah of course " he looks down at his hands. Why am I shaking... "Rin are you okay?" Shiemi asks with a concerned tone in her voice. " haha..yeah just great.." the blue haired demon says with a shaky voice. I didn't study... I was to busy... He looks down at his concealed arms. What if I fail... "okay class I hope we studied this, it will efect are grades a lot so good luck!" The young teacher says walking around passing paper tests out. He stops at Rins desk hands him his test. " are you okay Rin your a little shaky.?" He looks down at Rins hands. "I'm fine four eyes" the elder brother says still staring down at his own shaky hands. Shit shit.. "hey un Rin you have a little blood on your uniform" fuck fuck fuck...I thought I made sure there was none..shit. Rin forces a laugh "must have cut my finger or something.." Yukio looks at his blood stains on his uniform again. " yeah okay..we'll just make sure to wash it later. Good luck on your test." Shit...what if he finds out..he will hate me..more. I cant let him find out. Rins eyes get a little glossy. Shit...why am I crying what the hell.. I just need to do this test. Rin flips through the pages of the test looking at the questions to see if they look somewhat difficult. They do. Crap..
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Rin looks around the room to see if other of his cram school class mates seem to understand this. Everyone seems—. " Rin eyes on your own test please." I..wasn't..okay it's fine I got this.. Rins tail starts to wave around in a nervous fit. And Rin starts to shake his leg. I cant sit still...I can barely breath..what's wrong what's happening.. I need to pass this test pull yourself together Rin.. A tear drop rolls down Rins face. Yukio looks up at Rin and sees his the panicky state he is in. " Rin can you go in the hall for a second?" Shoot...what does he need...did I do something what if he knows—"now?" The younger teen gets up and walks with Rin out side of the room. Yukio closes the door behind them. " are you good Rin?" The younger twin looks at Rins still shaking hands. " yup fine. No—" he was interrupted by the brown headed teen again " your hands are shaking. Your not fin I am your brother Rin just tell me what's wrong." No! Leave me alone.. please.. why can't I be alone.. I want to be dead not here.. "look yukio I am happy your worried about me or whatever but I am fine." I am not Yukio... I'm not..

Your right your not~
A little voice echos in Rins head. What..who— it's true Rin your nothing~ sh..shut up that's no— don't deny it~ Who are you and why are you talking to me !?

Notes!
That's all for chapter one I hope you guys likes it! I am not too sure how the story is gonna go so far but I hope you like it <3