I try so hard
To forget the days that have kept me down
But whatever I do
Whatever I try
The time of sadness crawls back to me
The edge draws near
And I’m standing at it’s tip
The reason of my hatred
Violence
Threats
Towards my own self
If only I had confided
And caged this monster that crawls in my way
That puts itself in my path
I have to wait
Wait for it to pass like I did last time
Beat myself up but let it do what it does
Feel the scars and wounds
Whips of screams
I can’t stop them leaking out
Time can be my friend
But it sends me through trials upon trials
To see if I really deserve the happiness I want in the end
Waiting hurts
It claws down my spine
But you never know if the waiting may be worth it
If the pain you went through caused anything better
For the future you grasp for
But it keeps coming back
No matter how much harder I grab onto the happiness I got to hold
For once in my life
Please leave me alone
