PACIFICA

CHAPTER 2

PACIFICA

I don't know how long it was or when the tears had decided to tame themselves but I knew it was time to go back home to my kids, all I could trust right now was that time would take care of all my wounds, it would mend my broken heart and it will fill the gap in my soul, I just had to wait a little longer.

It was times like this that you actually wish that shifters and supernaturals were real, Turn eighteen, find your mate and live happily ever after, that had to be simple living.

Once I'd stepped back into the busy streets of Paris, I made a quick trip to the store where I'd punned my dress for a sweat pant, sweater and a couple of euros, I could honestly care less about the original price of the dress, soon I'd proceeded to Paul's home, taking a cab to the family house I called home for the past two years.

Upon arrival I saw everyone still spotting gloomy faces, while others went about fixing the mess that has been made earlier and the others stood and stared like I grew two heads.

deciding that ignoring them was a better option for now I made my way to the living room where I saw Paul and his family all sat in silence while April sat on his laps chewing her nails, a habit she did when nervous, I guess everyone had their own issues seeing as I expected them to be celebrating Paul's freedom from me.

I knew they hadn't seeing me so I took the back hallway and made my way over to the short but spiral staircase down to the room I'd  stayed in for the past two years, slowly opening the door and walking in to find my babied still in the clothes they'd worn earlier on, they looked like they had cried themselves  to sleep so I bent over and kissed their heads in hopes that they could find comfort in their sleep.

Attempting to get on with packing our bags but was halted by my daughter's tiny hands grasping on mine in time to stop me from moving.

     "Mummy?"
She'd whispered, seemingly half asleep, so I scooped her in my arms and placed her on my laps before I answered her.

     "Yes baby?"
"Are you okay now?"
She'd asked, lifting her tiny hands and rubbing over my cheeks in a comforting manner.
   
    "Yes baby, I'm fine"
I was quick to reassure her cause Ella was way too smart for her own age, super faster than her equals, had extremely heightened senses and could engage me in a therapy session faster than lightening, so I always liked hiding as much pain as I could away from her.

Distractedly I'd looked around our room and I'd realized that I was in more pain than I was choosing to accept but what could I do?

   "Baby, I'm sorry but we'll have to move out of here today and I hope you trust that mummy will find us a really good place to stay"
I'd said as slowly and softly as I could manage without letting the tears fall.

     "Our home is wherever you are mummy"
Talk about being too smart for her own age.

I'd smiled and continued to pepper her face with kisses, wondering what I ever did right to deserve such  blessings.

I'd kissed her one more time before placing her back on the bed with her sleeping brothers then went to the closet and pulled out my biggest suitcase where I packed everything I'd gotten with my own money over the years which wasn't exactly much seeing as Paul insisted on "Spoiling" me, once I was sure I'd gotten everything of mine, I did same for them before locking up the suitcase.

I went back out and wiped Ella's body seeing as I didn't want her to catch a cold, but then again that was the strange thing, Ella never got sick like other kids, and no matter what weather we were in, she was always warm and other times just hot but not enough to be a fever.

Once I was done wiping her, I changed her into comfortable sleep Wears, brushed her tiny perfect teeths that had extremely sharp canine teeths that people seemed to freak out about, that shouldn't even be there but I honestly didn't care, she would be turning five in a few weeks so she was free to over grow.

Once I'd pulled her extremely long red hair in a ponytail, I woke her brothers who didn't stop whining and did cleaned them up as quickly as I could manage, I did a little fixing  myself, then I scooped Tesla up in my arms then used my free hand in dragging along the heavy suitcase down the stairs that led to the living room where everyone was white Keem and Ella followed along.

I watched as they all turned to my direction with guilt reeking in waves out of them before Adelina Rushed over and pulled me in a one sided hug, whispering how sorry she was for her sons actions but I'd been quick to smile at her before assuring her that All will be well.

Once she pulled away, I'd bent over and took out the Manila envelope in the side bag then took slow steps towards a dumbstruck Paul, then I passed it to him, making sure not to look at April cause I didn't want to see her prominent smirk right now.

In that envelope were the flight details, plans and maps for places we were going for our honeymoon, I wasn't going to need it anymore and I didn't want anything from him anymore cue my reason for returning them.

     "Thank you for eve-"

   "Pacifica plea-"
He'd whispered before stretching his hands out to reach out to me but I'd been quick enough to step back, I couldn't deal with him right now.

    "For everything you did for us and I'm sorry for holding you back from what you truly wanted, I wish you guys the best"
And without a second thought, I grabbed my suitcase, held tighter to Tesla who just tilted his head to the side and watched me like he was studying me, ushering my other two ahead, we'd rushed out of the place that had been our home for two years.

A lot of people would think I didn't mean it when I wished them the best but I did, Paul wasn't the one for me obviously, but if the one for him was April then the best I could do was wish them well, both not for any other reason but the fact that he had giving me life when I didn't have the hope of ever living was enough to wish him better days ahead.

But above all this, I hope for the best for my kids and I.

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This chapter is a birthday gift to myself.

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