I spent all the love I had- (Sam X Bucky) WinterFalcon ;3

Need You

Eyoooooo luvs!!!! SO before we get started with this chapter, I wanna apologize for being late :( school was tough, I was dealing with depression, I was losing friends, but I'm okay now! I want you guys to know, i am going to keep making this story. Once I finish it, let me know if I should do a Part 2. Also this chapter is pretty long to make up for everything TwT. After this book, i am making another one, so I'm not quitting or anything! i'm still going! i love you all! and if you guys ever need to talk about anything, i'm here, i promise, there is no judgment at all! 

+^Also a lil disclaimer, we got some smut in here, soooo skip if u no likey! i tried to make this chapter long for u thirsty peeps ÙwÚ!!!!!                  thank youuuu have a proud day!!!!!^+   ~ Peter :D

Author's POV

Bucky tripped multiple times, falling into the snow. He stumbled and put his hands on his face, trying to gain balance. Dropping onto his knees and sit in the cold fluff. Looking up into the sky, hoping he'd see something for a sign of hope. He lips separated as his eyes grew redder. Sam flooded into him and moments of them touching ate away at his heart. 

 He slammed his metal fist in the ground and cried out to Sam again. Sprawling snow bits, he rubbed his eyes quickly. I'm a mess. I'm a mess without a cause. I fucking hate myself. He retorted those words to himself on and on. " Sam please!" He yelled with sobs choking at his words, "You were the only thing that held me together after Steve!" He closed his eyes and stared at the streets empty besides a couple of cars and people walking on the sidewalks. His blurry eyes made contact with a skinny, red haired woman walking.  The bottom half of her face was covered by a scarf, so he couldn't see who she was.

Her eyes widened and she slowly walked towards him. She weakly hollered the name. "B-Bucky?" His head immediately tilted to the side. "W-who are you?" Sobs strained his voice. "Bucky!" She started to run towards him. Bucky's reflex's kicked in. He gulped his tears down shakily stood up and blinked out tears before sprinting away from her. He saw a red glow as he ran. Shaking his head, Bucky kept his pace and ran down a hill, tumbling into a tree. He gasped for air as he felt a poke on his waist before blacking out.

Groggy, Bucky opened his eyes. Pain filled his chest and side down. His eyes were blood shot and he felt like sleeping. He tried talking but nothing came out. He looked down as blood covered his shirt. He slowly lifted his metal arm and touched his waist. He cried out in horrid pain. " No... No no no please no.." His eyelids flickered and he saw a branch of the tree sticking out of his side. He cried as he pulled at it to get out. He screamed for help, but no noise came other than his sobs. He wrapped the vibranium arm around the branch, and kept yanking. Each pull making his vision go black. Tears streamed his face as his metal arm finally got him out of it. Blood splattered onto the snow and all over his hand. He coughed out red as he stood up and stumbled up the hill towards the cliff. He fell half way there, and crawled the rest of the way. 

Finally reaching the top, he used a pole to help himself up. He gazed down into the dark abyss. Terror swelled up inside him, considering he w=is afraid of heights. "It's b-better this way. For Steve. For Everyone. For Sam." Bucky's eyes were glazed with sadness. He shut his eyes and clenched his side and let himself drop off the high cliff. Wind rushing past his ears and his body was all he felt. He felt as if he was dying already. His eyes opened and he saw blood fly upwards from his body. The edges of his eyes were fading to black. Tears filled his eyes as he blinked, sending them into the air. One last time, he opened his eyes and saw Sam flying at full speed to him. A candle of hope lit in his heart. Sam was screaming his name. His full name. "James! James Bucky Barnes!" Bucky snapped back to reality. He didn't want to die. He wanted to live. He wanted to be with Sam. He wanted marry him and live happily ever after with him. He reached his hand out to Sam and tried to grab his hand. Sam flew faster. Sam's fingers barely touched Bucky's, then, that was it. Bucky's eyes shut. Everything went black.

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Sam's POV

I sat with my hands over my face on my couch. I stood up and started to pace around my apartment. Leaning my head against a wall, I glanced at my bedroom door. Tear marks stained my face and I wiped my nose with my sleeve. I shook my head and grasped the handle and opened it. My eyes were closed when I opened the door. But when I had my eyes open, everything inside my body stopped. Bucky sat straight up, looking at the bandages on himself. He slowly looked up and at me. Bucky's face was filled with sadness. The words left my mouth without recondition. "Bucky.. Bucky y-you're alive.." Tears filled his eyes and I ran over to him, Our mouths touched and I pressed my lips firmly against his. He wrapped his arms around my neck, rubbing the back of it with a hand. 

I sat on the bed and he pulled himself on top of me. He pressed harder on my lips. He pushed me down and tried to kiss me again. I pushed him back a little. "H-hey... Buck.. Hang on.." I panted. If we were gonna, well... I mean we can't you're hurt!  "W-what?" Bucky looked desperate. I ran my hand through his hair and kissed his neck. "Buck... As much as I want to... you're hurt. I'm not going to hurt you more-" He silenced me by grabbing my face from his neck and pulling me into a deep kiss. I closed my eyes and brought him closer to me. I broke the kiss getting air and he held my face in his hands. "Sam..." I looked at his ocean blue eyes. He wrapped his legs around my back, along with his arms. "S-Sam you saved me... I.. Thank you.. I don't want to leave you. Sam, I love you." 

His mouth was buried in my shoulder, making his voice mumbly. I smiled and very gently held his waist, making sure I didn't touch hid wounds. I laid him down on my bed and kissed his cuts and wounds softly. "I promise Bucky. I'll never leave you. I'll never let anyone hurt you. You're apart of my family now. James I love you too." His voice started to crack after I ended my sentence.  He smiled at me and pressed his lips tp mine. He parted them, letting me insert my tongue into his mouth. He and I breathed heavily and I moved  my hand down his waist, down to his thigh. He whimpered and I pulled back, thinking I did something. His hand yanked my neck and pulled me to kiss me again. In between kisses, he mumbled words. "It's okay...I just..want it.." 

I smirked and I yanked my shirt off and threw it off to the side. I kissed his body, not missing a spot. As I lowered, his heavy breaths turned into moans. He covered his mouth with his metal four-arm. I slowly undressed the both of us. He shivered and pulled the blanket over the two of us. He sank down, and he touched my d!ck, slowly stroking it. I bit my lip and mourned out. He lick the tip slowly. "Ah...Buck..." I bit my lip harder. He started to suck on my d!ck. I moaned loudly and put my hand on his head. His tongue swerved around my d!ck and he let go and looked back at me. He had drool and c_m dripping from the side of his lips. I kissed him hard, forcing my tongue inside his mouth. He let his moans out in breaths. I slid my hand down his thigh, down, touching his hole. "Mmmha...ha... S-Sammm... ahhHHh..." Bucky panted. I stuck a finger in him and moved around, opening him up. "Hah..ha... Sammy... ahhhh~!" I bit his neck and held my d!ck to his hole. "mmmmm~ I-I'm r-ready....hah..." I smiled and slowly put myself into him. He clutched my shoulders and moaned loudly in my chest. "Ah..ah ah hah Sam~!!! mmmmmmhah....mmmmm~" Panting, I started to move back forth. He puts his hands over his mouth, and muffle his moans. 

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Bucky's POV

My eyes flickered open and I turned to look at a window right next to the bed. The sun was out and was shining brightly. I Smiled slowly and looked back to the other side of me. Sam was there. His hands were wrapped around my waist, gently rubbing his thumb. I let my eyes close and when I opened them, Sam was kissing my face. I laughed and shifted on top of him and sat up. My eyebrows raised and my eyes widened. I didn't know he were still undressed... My face turned red and Sam smirked, sitting up as well.

He picked me up and into his small closet. His lips brushed mine and he got some clothes from a dresser and some that were hanging up. He threw some at me and told me to wash off and get dressed. "While your in the shower, I'll make some food, then when you get out you can eat and I'll get in. Okay?" I tilted my head. "Sure," He ran his hands through my hair and kissed me roughly before leaving the room. I smiled big and put my hands on my face and squeal quietly. I felt warm and excited. God, I love this man...