the wind that saved me || XiaoVen angst au

Half of me is dead inside

〠 Xiao's pov 〠

I watch as Venti closes's his eyes and goes limp. He looks so..peaceful. Suddenly, I feel chest pain. Am I dying? My chest hurts a lot. I'm crying. Oh..this is sadness right? 

Morax mutters something about stupid venti.

I look watch as Venti's body starts to disappear and turn into sparkles. I hug it one last time. I love him. I just told him that I loved him.

I'll never love again. For my heart only belongs with Venti. 

I have cried all my tears and all that's left is a broken yaksha. All of my emotions are once again bottled up but this time I won't forget them. Venti's changed my life forever. I pick up the cecilia that Venti had left behind and clutch it next to my heart. 

I'll never forgive that goddess or Aether. 

✸Morax's pov✸

This shouldn't have happened. Barbatos is dead. It's probably all because of me. I told him to come. I should have left without him. If I had, he would still be happily strumming his lyre.

First, My lover is gone, and now my closest friend is gone. I really miss it when he'd call me 'The Lorax' or 'Borax'. The world is cruel but there's nothing you can do about it.

People think gods can do even the impossible. But..one can't even fix death. If I went back in time, I wouldn't have told Barbatos to go to the battlefield. I should have died. The world is dull without the cheerful god by my side. But, I think he'll be happy if I continued to live. I'll continue to live. But, I won't live happily..

 I don't deserve to.