As i wad sitting on the couch trying not to cry I remember all of the papers with our date "10-29-14" were all on my wall in my room ( my mom allowed me to write or put stuff on my wall). So anywho I went upstairs and ripped everthing off (even doe some off it wasn't even about austin I was just so upset and angry i just ripped it all off.
I went in to the bathroom that I share with my three brothers and locked the door. I promised austin that I wouldnt cut anymore but why should keep my promises when he didnt keep his. But I knew if I cut on my wrist my (other half) pagie would check there. So instead I pulled down my pants, grabbed my razer and cut my thighs and my hip.
1 cut for being ugly
2 cuts for stupid
3 cuts for being a whore
4 cuts for falling for him
As I was cutting all I could do is cry not because it hurt but because I still love austin. Even though he hurt me i still wanna be with him.
Later that sameday I got a text from austin " the only reason we broke is because we fought alot and you ignored me today" I felt so stupid. I thought to myself the only reason I didnt talk to him is because I was on my period. I didnt talk to anyone.
