I sit and i feel too innocent for my liking
I look up and i can't help but recall the days
I looked foward to seeing your thick golden dreads
the popular thrifted tight knee pants
and those black polished shoes
Even
Detention was not as draining when i was trying to act out of my character
Just so you could find me unique and "chill"
The 4 year age gap made me try to prove my maturity even if it meant keeping a straight face when my friends are cracking stupid jokes
just because you are passing by if i may add
I'm sorry to myself i didn't know any better
To think about it now that i have a bit of knowledge
i looked a little stupid and uptight sometimes
But i also used to laugh a lot since i was the comedian of the group
so i guess if u cared u probably saw me a couple times
I remember when i sort of believed u knew who i was
when u waited for me
And my eyes were fixed to the black "unworthy of my attention" device
i probably showed my immaturity right that moment
if i looked up i probably wouldn't be turning 18 in 49 hours
with an unsatisfied heart and no experience on what im supposed to be experiencing
