Turn of tides

What is life but just a sea
Soothing waves all over me,
Tides that come and tides that pass,
Raging storms here to last.

All in one and just one game
Play it all- outcome the same.
Why, you wonder. Why, indeed?
Why is living such a need?

Why we cry crunching on shore
Arms in wind asking for more?
More of it, more of the sea
Deep longing engulfing me.

Fingers reaching in wet sand
Water slipping from my hand
"Take me with you, I can't stay
Watching you pass day by  day."

We want more, we always do
Ignorance we can't undo.
Not prepared but yet demanding,
In unknown our wings expanding.

Then we shudder, it's too much.
Waves are crushing me in touch.
Storms are endless in the dark.
Wanted sea is just pit black.

Cracking lighting burning deep
Charing flesh- I did not seek.
Wounds crusted under salt,
Laughing thunder never halt.

"Do you want me?"- the sea calls
Water in my lungs it flows.
Pumping heart breaking to hear,
The sea whispers in my ear.

"I am madness, I am pain,
Living me brings you no gain".
Words seductive in the wind
Hurtful thoughts seeking to bind.

"You don't like living ashore
But you cry when you are sore.
Such frail being, oh just give up 
Take my poison bottoms up".

I hear laughing, I hear distraught,
Is it all but just an act?
I see sadness in waves deep,
Endless tears inside to keep.   

There no end to all this sorrow
No hope left that I can borrow,
Heaviness and such despair,
As I squirm breathing for air.

Muffled sounds now far away
Coin in hand, the boatman's pay,
Silence sweeping in my heart
Body sinking in the dark.

So seductive in its grasp
Soothing touch, no questions asked.
Luring souls, caressing mind,
Bringing peace with words so kind.

Would it really bring release?
Would my need for sooth appease?
Would it flow inside my veins
Freeing me from rusted chains?

It's so tempting, oh so much.
All it needs it's just one touch.
One second of closing mind,
Nothingness hoping to find.

"Come to us" murmur the dark
Endless waves as I embark
On a journey with no end,
Closing in on my descend.

"Come to us" whispers abound
Surrounding me in their sound.
Swirls of water cold and wet
Wrapping me inside their net.

"Come to us" they now demand
Crushing wrathful on the sand.
Spiraling thoughts, emotions roar,
Boiling rain on my heart pour.

I cry deep from all my might
Bones and soul breaking apart.
Sorrowfulness too much to bare,
Deaf ears hearing no prayer. 

I stay there sobbing alone
As my cries are long time gone,
Closing wounds and mending tears
In my skin and in my fears.

Heaving chest of beating drums
Silent music it becomes,
Calmness reaching deep inside,
As I watch the turn of tide.

Maddening waves pulling behind
No happiness there to find.
In the vast blackness of sea
The one I've looked for, was just me.

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