Journal of a Tragic Night!

Why press charges??

This part is part of what I wrote when I had to write out a witness form. I left out lots of things from that night when I wrote it on the witness form. I was too shaken up and distracted to remember and write it all down. I was so scatter brained that night. This isn't about the night but this is some more of the reasons I wanted to press charges that I gave the police officer. The first part of this story was what I wrote to the police officer only in way more detail. This is gonna be pretty much the same thing but some of the stories are a little bit longer. The first part is about him sexually harassing me and threatening my friends. The second part is about him basically stalking me.

The reason why I want to press charges is because my mom was raped when she was 17 and that's how I was conceived. She never did anything about it and now I am going through almost the same thing and I'm not going to allow Tanner to get away with it. I'm not gonna let Tanner walk around the streets unpunished like my father or should I say sperm donor, Mario Rodriguez, has done for 19 years.  I now know what my mom went through and I won't let another man go free for rape, even if it was just attempt of rape. 

Tanner and I were together for 2 years and and he always used the fact that my mother was raped against me. He would manipulate me to get me to stay with him. One time after he cheated on me he came to me and said that he was raped. He knew it was a sensitive subject for me but yet he still told me this to get me to stay with him. I know it was stupid of me to believe him but I was 15  and young, naive and in love. He eventually told me the truth on what really happened but it was still very insensitive of him to do that.

Another time he came over and we were hanging out and having a good conversation until he came over and started grabbing my breasts. I told him to leave and do not touch me. He just kept touching my breasts and trying to get me to touch him. Finally after the 3rd time of time of telling him to leave he starts to leave. He didn't leave entirely yet though. He went to the back door and stopped and lit a cigarette. He knew I can't stand the smell of smoke and he was just trying to piss me off. I tell him to leave again and he just eggs me on even more. He finally left after the 3rd time I told him to leave. Then my friend, Adam, came knocking on the door and asked if I was alright because he saw him driving off. He said he got the feeling that I was in trouble so he came over to check on me to see if I was alright. I told him what happened but that I was fine and he was pissed but also impressed that I got him to leave.

He has wrecked my life for 2 and a half years and I won't stand it any longer. He needs to learn his lesson and be punished because I'm sure he has done this to other girls and I don't want any other girls getting hurt because of him. He would threaten my my friends and family went they would warn me of cheating. He even followed one of my friends home and was going to jump her for telling me he cheated on me. She was so scared that when she saw him following him she didn't even go home she just turned around and sat in the high school parking lot until Tanner finally left.

He also threatened one of my friend's mom's who I have known for 13 years. I told him that I was going to stay at her house for a week. She had just stayed at my house for a week and we still wanted to hang out so I was going to stay at her house for a week now. He didn't like this idea and started screaming and yelling at me saying that he was going to run her mom off the road if I leave. I didn't understand why he was so pissed I had never seen him like this. He later told me the reason why he didn't want me to go was because of her brother who was my age. I guess my friend had told him about her brother and he was a little bit of a man whore and he didn't want me to be around him. He was afraid something was going to happen between us. Which he was partially right he did try something. He asked me to go go down to his room and make out with him. I said no but he was still pissed. My mom wanted me to break up with him but I refused. Sometimes I wish I would have listened to her and broke up with him. 

He also broke into our house once while we were together to play a little "joke" on us. He walked into our house and turned over all the furniture in the living room to make it look like someone had broke into our house. It scared this shit out of my mom and she called the police. They showed up and started asking mom questions about what happened and Tanner said he didn't know what happened. He said it looked like some guys just pulling a prank since nothing was taken. He later told the truth and said he did it as a joke. My mom wanted me to break up with him there too but I didn't listen. I was young, naive and in love then too.

I should have gotten rid of him when he did all these things but I was young and naive and he knows how to push a girl's button. He knows how to get you to do exactly what he wants you to do. He knows how to get you while you are vulnerable and use your fears against you. Like how I was really afraid of getting raped and pregnant like my mother was.

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I also feel like he is stalking me sometimes. One time my aunt and uncle were in town from Kansas City. They were staying with my grandma who was living in the trailer park behind our apartments. I was over there visiting my family and he started texting me asking if we can hang out. I told him I wasn't home and I wasn't going to be home until like after 10. He told me he couldn't come over because he has to be home by 9. I tell him that's good I didn't want to see him anyways. About 10 or 15 minutes later he showed up on my grandma's door step. I didn't even tell him where I was or anything and he had never been to her house EVER. She hadn't even been living in her trailer for very long when this happened. I asked him how he found me. He told me that one of my friends told him. They saw me walking over there and told him where I was. I told him I doubt that because all my friends hate him and would know I wouldn't want him to be able to find me. I still don't know how he found me, he wouldn't tell me, but he did find me. 

 Also when I am around town or walking somewhere he will turn around and try and talk to me. One time I was hanging out with my friend Sam and we see him drive past us. I tell Sam that hes probably gonna turn around and try and talk to us. She doesn't believe me she says thats dumb because hes going a different direction. She thought it was pointless to turn around just to talk to me. I told her I knew him too well sadly and he will turn around. Well guess who was right. Me of course. He was turned around and in front of us in less then 5 minutes. We had to sit there awkwardly and talk to him while we were waiting for my mom to give us a ride home. We were standing outside the bookstore. We had walked up there but we had my 4 year old sister with us and she was tired of walking and didn't want to walk back.

Also I always see him driving around my best friend Eva's house and she would see him too. He  would just waves at Ciara, Eva and I. All they would do is flip him off when hes not looking. I know it may not be stalking but he should know thats where Eva lives and I hang out over there a lot. Also yet another creepy thing he does is for months he would drive up to the high school and just watch me. He always said that he was there to pick up a friend but I rarely saw him picking up anyone. Don't get me wrong there was a couple times that he did pick a friend up but again that was rare. I would get so freaked out. I know that he was watching me because even some of my friends and aquaintances noticed him doing it.

He has always done this kind of stuff but now its been getting worse. Normally he would see me around town and assume that I wanted to talk to him. He would harass me then leave me alone for weeks until he saw me again or he was horny then he would do it again. For the longest time I was like "I can deal with it. He will just harass me once then leave me alone for weeks. I can deal with that all I have to get through is him bothering me for a day." But here lately he has been harassing me for like a month.