Journal of a Tragic Night!

Waiting....

I am waiting for the police to do their job and get Tanner in jail where he belongs. Which sounds worse then it really was. The police were actually really good to me and helped me out a lot. I was so scared about what is going to happen next. Was he gonna come after me for calling the cops?? Was he gonna deny everything and make me out to look like some pathetic liar?? Is his family going to hate me for calling the cops and wrecking their lives?? I know it might sound crazy but I loved his family and I still do.They were part of the reason why I stayed with Tanner for so long. They were always really good to me.

I may be scared out of my mind but I know I am doing the right thing. He put me through a lot in the 4 years that I had known him. My family and friends had told me so many times that I should have called the cops on him a long time ago. But like I said before I just didn't think it had gotten to the point where the cops needed to get involved. I mean yes he had been bothering me for a while. Stalking me, sexually harrassing me and he even almost ruined a couple of my relationships. He made me into someone I wasn't. He made me like him. A cheater. I never liked it when he cheated on me but he made me into a cheater. He needed a wake up call to make him realize that he can't treat girls the way he does. LIke they are some toy that they can use and fuck whenever he wants to.

Even when he has a girlfriend that really loves him. He would go to another girl. He always told me it was because I wouldn't have sex with him. I even almost slept with him a couple times to keep him with me and keep him from going stray and sleeping around with other girls. But he started dating another girl after me and he still cheated on her even though they had sex all the time. They had a baby to prove it. If the sex thing wasn't the reason then what was it. I still wonder what was his reasons. 

Anyways I'm getting a little distracted. Lets get back to what I was talking about before. Waiting for the cops to do their job. I started dating Hunter. I needed some comfort and I figured since he was the first person I thought of in my time of need he would be a good comfort for me. I don't know if that was a good decision. I probably shouldn't have jumped into a relationship after almost being raped. But he has been good to me and he was their for me throughout the trials.

It only took the police less then 2 weeks to get him into jail but that was the longest 2 weeks I had ever experienced.  I was so scared to go anywhere. I didn't want to walk more then a block from my house. Which was sad because I loved walking. I barely wanted to go anywhere I was so afraid to go outside because I was afraid he was going to come after me. 

The next morning after I got questioned I sent his grandpa a text telling him I'm sorry that I had to get the police involved. He actually didn't know what I was talking about. I guess the police came and asked if Tanner was there and he needs to be questioned but he didn't say the reason why. I was surprised Jim called me just minutes after I had sent him a text. He was not to happy about him trying something with me. He wasn't to happy with me that I let it go for so long without telling him. He told me he would have definately gotten after him if I had told him. It made me feel good that he didn't hate me. He even said he loved me when he hung up the phone like he used to do when Tanner and I were together.

I asked him if I could have Kandi's number (Tanner's mother) so I could appologize to her and see how she was doing. It probably wasn't a good idea that I talked to them both but I did. She wasn't too happy about it either. Especially since she had just had to deal with him attacking her when her and his gf got into an argument. She said that he fucked up big time. That was her words not mine. She said that he needs to learn that he can't get away with this kinda stuff. He needs to learn his lesson and accept the punishment for what he did. The whole "Don't do the crime if you don't wanna do the time" kind of situation.

Later that day the police came and told me that they hadn't found him. I kind of already knew that since Jim told me that the police came but Tanner wasn't there. I didn't say that to them I don't think though. I told them that in the evenings he goes to Wal-Mart to pick up his girlfriend. That probably didn't help them find him but that was the first thing that I could think of. They went to his house a couple times and couldn't find him.