DRUNKEN START.✔️

𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘺 𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘦.

"birthday."

(5th june 2021)

"today is a special but weird day."

seungmin spoke still in the arms of hyunjin. they were currently on the couch watching tv, seungmin was lying his back on hyunjin's chest as hyunjin played with his hair.

hyunjin looked down at him intrigued. wanting to know what today was. was it their anniversary? no. that's in a week. his birthday? no, that's in september.

"how come princess?"

"it's my mom's birthday and the day my dad passed." seungmin said as his voice broke towards the end.

hyunjin cooed sadly and changed his position as he fully hugged seungmin he rubbed his back gently while saying "sorry baby".

"n-now i don't even know where she is. i know she has hurt me a lot but. she's still my mom. her world broke when my dad passed. i knew she felt guilty. she was cruel to my dad, and she was cruel to me. funny, because my dad always says that i look just like her."

seungmin then tubbed his tears away and looked at hyunjin trying to force a smile. hyunjin smiled sadly and leaned down to kiss seungmin's lips as he cupped seungmin's cheeks.

"it's okay baby, she's okay." hyunjin said trying to reassure him.

then the doorbell rang, hyunjin got up as he opened the door. there was a mail man with a medium sized box, it was adressed to seungmin.

"princess, you have something."

"who is it from?"

hyunjin shrugged as he put the box down on the carpet. seungmin got down sitting criss crossed as he opened the box.

when he opened the box he smiled a little, it was from his mom. there was photo of seungmin and his parents on the last birthday they have as three.

"i-it's from m-my mom." seungmin said as he tried to hold up the tears but couldn't. inside there was a letter, it was neatly sealed with a heart sticker, he opened the letter and read it silently.

seungmin-ah

i know it's been a while since i've said your name but. im sorry. im really sorry for all the things that i've done to you. i know i'm a terrible mother, i know that i haven't been raising you. i'm sorry that i birthed you in this world when for a fact i know i wasn't ready. i just hope that you will have a good life without me because i won't be there anymore you won't suffer anymore. i'm currently in therapy, to get myself sorted out and i met a nice man and im planning to live with him. i hope you eat well and sleep well, and i know you have met someone already. i know you're gay, i'm sorry that i couldn't accept it but now i do. i hope that he is a nice young man. i hope he treats you well. i sent you this box that i have kept from you since your father died. i'm so sorry baby. i did this. i know i did. this might be long but i want you to know that you're still my son okay? even if i'm not a mother to you, you're still my son. i hope you have a great life, i hope we can meet again. but for now i want you to live the happiest you can be without me, because i've brought you nothing but negativity. stay healthy, don't forget to eat, shower, and take care okay? i love you.

mama.

by the end of it, seungmin broke down. he realized how much he loved his mother, he knew that his life wasn't great with her but, it was something.

"i'm sorry. i'm sorry mama. i feel horrible i'm so sorry i love you." seungmin didn't know but he felt guilty. he wanted to see his mom some day just to visit. he wanted his mom to feel like she didn't do anything wrong.

hyunjin rubbed seungmin's back slowly as he tried to calm him down. seungmin rubbed his tears away and tried to see what else was there.

hyunjin just sat there, he didn't want to interrupt seungmin and his time with his parents. he knew that he would have to stay silent to respect seungmin.

seungmin looked into the box seeing, old tiny paintings of stars and flowers from the past, him and his dad made that. he smiled cherishing the memory.

he then grabbed an old teddy bear that his dad gave him at the toy store. he remembered how he threw a tantrum until his dad gave in and spent his money on him.

then there was a letter, it was old, it was crumpled a little. seungmin opened it and his eyes widen.

it was his dad's letter.

*𖧷*
(sob.)

(translation; in reality, what am i?)
(you're dwaekki. 2021 it toy.
EVERYONE IS IN LOVE WITH U)