Her Darkness (Jim Moriarty x Reader)

Chapter Five

I paced around my flat. It had been a week since I had last talked to Jim, since he had again asked me to do something for him. I didn't want to listen. There was this, thought, I guess. This idea that maybe I should.

I mean, everyone sees me as this good person, but maybe I don't want to be that person anymore.

"Where has being good gotten me? Where has caring about and helping everyone left me? Hurt." I thought. So, maybe it would be easier that way. Just, do what he wants. Stop caring about everything and everyone else.

No, then I just become the monster I've always feared that I would become. I don't want to be a bad person, not necessarily. I just want those people to pay for what they did to me. Isn't that normal?

I didn't know what to do next, what step that I should take. That, was probably what irritated me the most. Not knowing. It's not that I thought I couldn't get away with getting rid of those people for Jim. I knew I could get away with it, I know how incredibly clever I am.

I heard a knock on my door, which in turn, interrupted my train of thought. I walked over to the door. I opened it to see Jim standing there.

"I wouldn't have expected you to turn up here. What if someone had seen you?" I asked.

"You sound as if you care if I'm caught." Jim said.

"I don't." I said.

"May I come in?" Jim asked.

I sighed, then stood to the side so that he could come inside.

Jim walked inside. I closed the door behind him before I walked over to the couch and sat down.

"So, what on Earth are you doing here?" I asked.

"Well, I was in the neighborhood and thought I would pay you a visit" Jim said.

I raised an eyebrow in clear disbelief. I didn't think that he was telling the truth, not the whole truth anyway.

"You don't believe me?" Jim asked.

"No, I don't believe you at all. Why would I? You're a liar." I said.

"Everyone lies. Even you." Jim said.

"You're right, I have lied, that's beside the point though." I said.

"Is it? If you've lied, then why point out the fact I have?" Jim asked.

"That really isn't the point" I said.

"Then, what is the point?" Jim asked.

"That doesn't matter. I don't trust you. I have no reason to trust you" I said.

Jim walked back over to the door. "Well, you are going to listen to me. A shame, really. I would've enjoyed having you on my side. I suppose we will meet again." He said before opening the door, walking out, then closing it.

I sighed, then ran my hands through my hair. I didn't understand why he was so persistent on me joining him, having me on his side. It's not like he knows me. He can't know me. He doesn't understand that I want to be good.

An hour later

There was a knock on my door. I got up and walked over to the door then opened it.

"Is this a bad time?" Sherlock asked.

"No, why would you think that?" I asked.

"Never mind. Can I come inside?" Sherlock asked.

I nodded my head before standing to the side. After Sherlock walked inside I closed the door behind him.

"So, what are you doing here?" I asked.

"I just had a feeling I should drop by" Sherlock said.