Flip-side of Ohryn

Black

MONDAY
The cigarette was dangling, bouncing in between my chapped blue lips that was beginning  to burn the crease of my mouth.

I don't mind at all, its the only thing keeping me warm.

Pieces of ash flittering and waltzing into a downwards spiral until being stopped by the ground that was beginning to turn the bottom of my feet into icicles. The soft, buttery feeling of the snow grooving an imprint in between my toes.

Leaning sideways on a brick wall on the corner occasionally trying to pull the back of my skirt down waiting for some drunken clown to sweet talk his way under my panties. I don't mind as long as he pays his debt.

My birth control is installed into my arm. No pregnancy. Protection just in case. Regular check ups to ensure my health every month. I take care of me because who else is going to take up that responsibility? Exactly.

"Im not a prostitute," I continue to repeat as I pop three pills in order to relieve my stress. I pop two more, a little more than usual. That damn shrink had my mind blown.

"Dang lil mama whats under that fine piece. Let me get a taste." I felt him before I heard his tired, drowned voice. His breath spelled drunk when he began to open his mouth brushing the side of my face. He was pressed hard against me with his hands that moved upward to the side of my hips purposely lifting my skirt that was already too short.

"Get off of me you filthy piece of shit. You have to pay for this, " I try to say with force behind it, but I took way too many pills and it was starting to overtake me. My voice too soft to sound serious. I could barely see his face, my vision was getting blurry and my shoulders were starting to relax.

"L-leave me" I cry ,stumbling over my feet, he yanks me by my stomach cutting my breath short to pull me back to the exact spot when he initially came.

"Im going to make you feel so good you're gonna want to pay me."

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Just a teaser😉