𝐊𝐈𝐓𝐓𝐘..𝐭.𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐠𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐤𝐢

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you look in the bag to find the money he payed.

he really just..left?

i mean why wouldn't he? it's just a private room after all. that's what we do. you give them a show then they leave. 

quit acting stupid y/n...but..didn't we have something?

bag in hand you walk out back to the front desk, you see lilly and sara making out. you just roll your eyes and walk past, you weren't in the talking mood.

i just wanna go home.

fighting your way through the mob of people dancing on the club floor, you finally made it back to the dressing room. you catch a glimpse of you in the mirror. hair all messy, lip gloss smudged, and you outfit all out of place. you didn't even care. after grabbing you bags and collect your money you finally head out through the back door. usually you walk with lilly but you didn't wanna re-live what happened. even though nothing even happed. why the fuck are you making a big deal out of this? he got the room to be with you sexually nothing else. you grip your bag as you walk home. home wasn't far from the club and you felt somewhat safe walking since you walked along a main street with lights and tons of buildings. after the usual cat calls and stares you finally make it home.

home wasn't anything fancy, just an apartment with a view. you throw your stuff by the door and walk towards the huge windows that look down on the city.

stop being pathetic y/n

your the type of girl who has one tiny interaction with someone and then thinks about it all day, and usually ends up crying over it. you live alone. your parents cut you off after you chose the stripper carrier even though you did it for them. we were barely holding on and you started the job on the low then as you got bigger your family wondered where you got all this money from.

flashback [TW: yelling, somewhat abusive parents (no hitting just verbal abuse)]

"god your such a whore!" your mom yelled as she pushed you out of the house.

"mom please! i was trying to help us-"

"you helped nothing! nothing but yourself! what kind of person shows themselves off like that?" she laughs.

"im sorry ill quit just-please don't do this" you begged and the rain soaked your clothes an face.

"hell no! i hope there's someone out there who uses you, manipulates you,  don't ever show your face here again" she slams the door.

"mom please!" you scream "dad please I'm sorry!" 

after sitting in the rain crying you get up clutching your bag to your chest. of course the only bag she gave you was the one full of your stripper outfits. you take one last look at your house, turn around and run. 

end of flashback

shaking off the negative thoughts, you head to your room and turn on the shower. you felt horrible. 

after showering you flop on your bed and stare at absolutely nothing. you probably have a thousand texts from lilly right now so you reach for your phone.

35 messages from lilly<3

yup.

the messages just consisted of here asking where i was and if i went home with that "private room guy" as she calls it. 

y/n:

hey im ok dw! i felt really tired so i headed home ill ttyt ily mwah<3

you shut off your phone so you didn't see and response. you hates lying to her. well, its not a total lie but just not everything.

you hated everything about today.

IM RLLY TIRED SO THERE MIGHT B A LOT OF MISTAKES BUT OOPS OK ILY