peculiar how a half buried spoon
of me, this spoon, reminded you
"this is a little bit out of the blue..."
you're asking if you can send me a spoon
skull emoji like what Georgia Okeefe
placed in the clouds of the hot mojave
i don't want you to send me the spoon
you should be asking to send me something that costed lots and lots of money
or surrendering over the entirety of your body
or showers of flowers left porch-side politely
def not something you found on the ground
definitely not something that you got for free
i didn't have to watch La Pianiste to know
that fantasy always surpasses the truth
all airbrushed beauty and vaseline glow
disguising the negatively surprising, shook loose
by the very act of realizing
as insubstantial and not up to par
as ever before, *****, you are
are you still taking too many shrooms?
are you still overbaking both lungs in your room?
what's making you see omens in a spoon?
anything to avoid real introspection.
anything to put off the full realization.
anything to appear in conversation in my home.
anything to supplant what can't stand on its own.
"not comfortable" is what i decided to say
but unimpressed, disappointed,
deflated, annoyed and
anticlimactic would be another way.
