SCARS OF LOVE ✧ BELLAMY BLAKE

'too tired to live' - ix

too tired to live
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chapter nine

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   Natalia tightly wrapped and tied a ripped piece of cloth around her makeshift knife. She then grabbed a large rock and started to chip off extra metal she wouldn't need. By the end of her struggles she had five 'hunting' knives. Glancing at her three bleeding fingers; she decided it had been worth it.

With a loud groan, Natalia rose to her feet and made her way towards their small camp. Shouts in the distance made her increasingly become more concerned and her steady pace slowly turned into a run.

"Fight, fight, fight!" Delinquents chanted louder and louder as Natalia approached the camp.

Shoving the riled kids out of her way, Natalia saw Wells and John lunging at each other with dropship knives. Natalia grit her teeth together and made her way to the center of the fight.

Wells now seemed to have the upper hand and held the knife against John's throat.

"Are you freaking kidding me?!" Natalia shouted at the top of her lungs.

The chants for the fighters got very quiet at the loud shout. The sound of the two knives clanking against the ground could be heard in the now silent camp. "Wells what the hell?"

Natalia's head turned towards the voice to see Clarke and Finn as well as some of the others that were in their exploration group. Before anyone else could speak Natalia took a step toward the group and felt her heart drop.

"Where the hell is Crawford?' The four people who had returned all turned around in confusion.

"He was right behind us a moment ago?" Octavia said in concern. "I think her might've went back for Jasper.."

"Where the hell is Jasper?" Natalia asked in a hostile tone.

Finn and Clarke made eye contact, "We didn't make it to Mount Weather.."

The delinquents around them all let out confused comments, "We were attacked."  Natalia nodded her head and turned around to make her way back to the camp..

"Where are you going?" Someone called after Natalia, she just kept on walking. She didn't know what to do anymore, they had barely been on Earth and she was already so fed up with everything.

Her pace stayed the same and footsteps followed behind her, Natalia simply didn't even care anymore. How could they all be so stupid? Was surviving something they just didn't want to do.

Walking by her sample station, Natalia squatted down and started to pack it all up.

"What are you doing, Nat?" It was John and he was now standing beside her.

She glared up at him, tears of frustration burned in her eyes. "You're all so pathetic.." She grabbed one of her samples and threw the glass vile against a tree. "None of you are putting forth an effort, I understand that you've all locked up for a long time but you still need to survive."

Tears had now started to fall, "I can't keep doing this if none of you are serious! How can you expect me to help you all if I'm receiving no help? No effort, it's all me." She pointed a shaking finger towards the group. "None of you have even taken into account what will happen if we don't survive, are you not afraid to die John?"

The younger boy was shocked, he followed her to comfort her and not to receive the emotions she had been holding back.

"I don't want to die." He whispered.

She shoved a small bag towards John and started to walk further into the unexplored forest. "Act like it then, I'm not babysitting you guys anymore." She stopped and glanced back at John. "Give the bag to Monty, he'll know what to do."

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Natalia stared into the small creek in front of her, it had an odd colour to it and oils noticeably floated on the top. She reached down and filled a test tube with the toxic water.

Her biggest concern was that the radiated soil and water would kill the seeds she had brought with her to start a crop farm.

She'd been away from the camp for a few hours and it already felt ten times more calmer. She closed the test tube and decided to fill a larger container with the water in case she'd need it.

The sun had started to set now and it made Natalia a little uneasy. She wasn't so sure what happened at night but she thought she'd need to make a small shelter before the sun completely disappeared.

A branch snapping behind her caught her attention. She slowly reached for a large branch, she moved towards some bushes and ducked behind them.

"Natalia?" A timid voice called as two figures made their way out of the thick forest. It was Octavia and some boy.

Natalia slowly made her way out of the bushes and placed her hands on her hips, "What the hell are you doing out here?"

Octavia grinned and limped her way over to Natalia, the older girl suddenly became concerned. "What happened to your leg?!"

Octavia embraced Natalia and laughed, "A monster grabbed me but I'm okay." Natalia glanced at the boy behind them, "That's my babysitter, Atom."

Natalia glared at the boy, "At least you didn't come alone."

Octavia, with her arm loosely wrapped around Natalia, rolled her eyes. "I would've been fine anyway. Let's head back before it gets dark, Bellamy should be back anytime soon."

"I'm not going back, Octavia. Didn't Murphy tell you guys?" Natalia argued and stared at Octavia.

"No, he left with Bellamy and Clarke." Octavia grinned and shoved Natalia's shoulder. "Crawford will probably come back with them, let's just head back."

"I'll come back tomorrow, you guys head back." Octavia looked a little suspicious so Natalia held a pinky towards her. "I promise I'll come back tomorrow Octavia."

With a small smile, Octavia interlocked their fingers and stamped their thumbs.

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this chapter is all over the place but i hope you guys enjoy~ look forward to more updates!!