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Dear God

Holden's Pov

I sit looking at the glass in my hand wondering where everything went wrong, and how I got this far deep in despair. But at this point, I don't really care. 

I know I lost her, and nothing can get her back, just because I let her go. 

'you let her go to be happy dumbass' That little voice in the back of my mind says as I just nod and take another swig of tequila that's in the glass.

"Cheers to never-ending misery and despair" I hold my glass up once again, and I hear other people agree around me.

Knowing it's the last of the night I savor the slight burn in my throat. I proceed to look around until my eyes lock on the door where I see her. and I swear the world stopped, and my heart pounded against my ribcage as it did all those years ago. I lose my breath as her brown eyes connect to mine and it feels like sparks entering my body once again. 

I look away after a moment but I still feel hers on me. I quickly pull out my wallet from my pocket with shaky hands, taking out a fifty and slamming it on the table which catches everyone's attention but I pay no mind, as I swiftly walkout. 

I ignore her voice call my name as I run completely forgetting my car in the process. I keep running until my legs feel like jelly and my vision swirls. I drop to my knees as memories open like a revolving door both good and bad. 

Flack backs- italics   Dialog- Bold 

"I love you, Eva Cudmore, your my forever."

"No ple-" I whisper quietly 

"I promise to never leave you as long as I breathe."

"Please" I pleaded but it fell on deaths ear

"you, It'll always be you."

"No no please no" I whimpered pathetically 

"Im letting you go, I just want you to be happy Eva and I can see its not with me anymore"

"Stop it ok! I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" I whimper painfully to the moon hoping for the misery to stop which it did.

My heart still felt empty when I looked up towards the moon and the stars that practically shined seeing my down-filled misery.

After a while of sitting there looking at the night sky, I decided to go back home.

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I opened the door with a sad chuck finally realizing this is my punishment for breaking the love of my life, my soulmate's heart. with one last look at the moon and stars, I sighed and shut the door after I stepped in.

I walked to my room with shoulders slumped utterly defeated and towards my bed while taking off my shirt and throwing it on the floor. 

After a quick shower, I got ready for bed. looking out the window towards the night sky one last time I shut the curtains.

Before I fell asleep I couldn't help myself but ask a question.

"Dear God are you sure you don't mess up"

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A/N

There goes another one Lads and Gals and Non-Binary Pals

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