Damiano x Reader

Makeup~less

When the last applause was heard, I looked towards the others who stood on stage catching breaths trying to calm down from the adrenaline filled performance before we all shouted 'thank you' and rushed backstage. 

I gave our stage manager my microphone before we all sat on the couches and sofas trying to calm down and take in the energy we gained from the audience tonight. I noticed that everyone were as per usual laughing and sharing their excitement but Damiano seemed quiet which was not an every day occurrence. 

I sat besides him on the couch placing my hand on his shoulder and his head rose from the floor and he met my eyes. I borrowed my eyebrows noticing that his eyes seemed tearful and I was sure those were not happy tears. 

"Wanna talk?" I asked quietly knowing that he probably doesn't want everyone to know about whatever made him feel this way. He nodded and I did too so we went outside to "grab a smoke" while the others stayed excited to eat some well deserved junk food. 

We sat on the concrete bench and Damiano lit his cigarette letting the smoke come out as he signed loudly. 

"What's going on Dami?" I asked and he turned towards me but still stying quiet. 

"I don't know just..hearing some comments made me think bad about myself tonight" he said and I felt my heart tighten because he was the person who would tell me  to forget about worthless comments and be who I am. 

"You know there will always be haters and we need to learn how to not let that get to us...you taught me that" I said placing my hand on his shoulder again and he gave me a weak smile nodding his head before taking another smoke of his cigarette.

"Sometimes, it's so fucking hard!" he said exhaling the smoke and I nod resting my head on his shoulder just looking at the sky that looked so beautiful filled with stars.

"Y/N?" he said and I raise my head from his shoulder looking at him noticing the tear rolling down his cheek messing the black crayon I helped him put on before our performance.

"Yes?" I ask wanting to hug him really badly right now but needing to let him say whatever was on his mind first. 

"Do you think that I am weird for wearing makeup on stage? Like do you think I should stop being so eccentric?" he says patiently waiting for my response. 

I got up from the bench sitting on his lap instead and I could see that he was shocked with my actions. I snaked my arms around his neck hugging him rightly before moving a little so I can face him.

"I am the one who puts the makeup on your face before you walk on that stage and the one who takes it off before you go to bed. I get to see both sides of you and I love both of them equally. Dami, you are a beautiful man inside and out and if someone can't see that then that's their loss"I say seeing his glistening eyes stare at me with such admiration. 

"You really think that?" he asks sounding like a child who in need of a reassurance.

 I nodded my head moving a piece of his hair neatly behind his ear as he leaned into my touch. I felt my heart flutter when he closed his eyes enjoying the way my hand caressed his cheek and I found myself wanting to lean down and kiss him.

No Y/N! He is your band mate! You are friends! Don't ruin it because of an emotion filled night! thoughts ran through my mind but I couldn't help the need so I pressed my lips onto his pulling away when he didn't kiss me back.

Great! Now you made it weird! You should probably get off his lap!

I tried to move to stand up but his arms snaked around my waist pulling me back down onto his lap. He was looking at me and I gulped my cheeks reddening not really knowing what to say now.

"I'm sorry. I don't know why I did that. Just adrenaline from tonight you know..." I said but before I could speak another laying word he pulled me towards him crashing his lips onto mine taking me completely off guard.

For a moment I just stood there shocked at what was happening but the next moment my instinct kicked in and I kissed him back letting my hand run through his hair while his caressed my sides. When we pulled away and looked at each other we were both speeches. 

"Holy crap! I didn't see this night ending like this" he said smiling and I did too resting my head back on his shoulder as he cradled me with his arms holding me tightly.

"At least, I got that smile back on your face" I say and he smiled kissing the top of my head making me close my eyes asking myself if this is really real.

"So this means?" he asked looking down at me while I rose my head up a little so he can see my face.

"This means I am where I want to be. Can we stay there?" I say and he smiled nodding his head.

"Do you think we can make this work? With the band and us?" I asked still looking at him while he took his last smoke throwing away his cigar exhaling before looking down at me with a big smile.

"I think the reason we make the band work is because of how much we all care about each other and I am done trying to avoid my feeling for you. I just don't want to avoid this anymore..." he finished and I gulped suddenly wanting to feel his lips on mine again so I pulled his collar making him lean down and kiss me again.

"To us" I say smiling when we pulled away to catch some air and he smiled nodding his head.

"To us" he repeated and we heard loud cheering from the crew who was peeking through the exit door. 

"Fucking finally!" Victoria said rushing to give me a hug and we all laughed excited for this new chapter we get to do as a family!