Damiano x Reader

We can't...

Just want to say that no offense is meant to anyone with this story! This is purely my imagination and creative expression. 

In this story, you and Damiano are in love but can't do anything about it because he is in a relationship. Happy ending, I promise...

The loud cheer made me smile wide looking at all the beautiful fans who came to listen to our gig in Sweden to show us their support. It melts my heart every single time when I see people sing along and cheer for us because then I know everything that I sacrificed to do this job is worth it. 

A little backstory, I grew up at Milan but my family moved to Rome when I was 16 so I was that new kid in high school who always felt like she didn't fit in. Thankfully, that ended the moment I met Vic and then the rest of my friends. It's thanks to them that I realized how unhappy I was with my conventional career choice that was more my parents wish than my own. They got me introduced to the world of music and I was hooked from the first moment. 

When I told my parents about our band they always thought it was 'a teenage phase' so they never really worried about it thinking that I will get over it and follow my path to college like they wanted me to. When we went to X factor it was one of the biggest fights we had. 

If it wasn't for me being 18 at the time, they would have never let me go but I decided that I need to take control of my life and do what I believe in. Since then our relationship wasn't exactly good. I mean we still talk and they congratulated me when we won Sanremo and Eurovision but even now they wouldn't come to my shows even when they are in Rome. 

Damiano is the first person I told about this and since then he was the person I go to when I feel like I need to vent about my family because I knew he would understand. He always understood me...I guess that's how my feelings developed from trust and understanding with a man who amazed me more every single day. 

I never said anything fist because I was afraid of rejection and then because I didn't want to ruin our friendship or god forbids our band. Then he got a girlfriend which I was happy for him...he deserved the best. 

I cried that night and refused to see him...somehow I think he knew but there was nothing he could do and since then that's exactly how we felt...no matter what we felt..we just can't..

After the show was over, I walked off the stage being met by a family that laughed together and shared popcorn. It flashed in front of me that I used to have that and that I needed to give it up to have this. I swallowed hard fighting back the tears at least until I was away from all the cameras. 

I rushed to the fitting room while the others stayed behind to give a quick interview and wake to fans. I couldn't do it and the last thing I wanted was to break down in front of everyone. 

I went inside the fitting room sitting not he floor starting to hyperventilate feeling my panic attack consume me as I cried and sobbed quietly. I prayed that nobody heard me because I really can't explain what is going on right now. 

Then I saw Damiano walk inside and close the door behind himself before sitting on the floor beside me. I refused to look at him because I didn't know what to say and I just couldn't let myself fall more in love with someone I can't have. 

"I want...I can't...I can't..." I was mumbling while tears stalled down my face and my throat got tighter and he turned around facing me putting an arm around me slowly massaging my shoulders.

"I want my family back..." I said finally tears falling and sobs getting louder as he just sat there letting me work through it but ensuring that I know he is right there if I need him.

"Slow down.." he whispered soothingly knowing that is one of the things that helps when panic becomes overwhelming "shh..deep breaths" he adds and I nodded doing what he said. 

He reached for the paper bag and I placed it on my mouth slowing down my breathing feeling myself getting back to normal as panic subsides. I leaned towards him resting my head on his shoulder and he placed his chin on top of my head. 

We stayed like that for a moment just letting me breathe and calm down further. I felt him rub my back as I closed my eyes trying to catch my breath before slowly raising my head feeling our noses touch before I pulled away realizing that I probably shouldn't be here alone with him like this...we can't

We looked at each other and I saw such admiration in his eyes that made my heart speed in the most special way. 

"I'm ok..." I said drying my tears and he nodded moving a piece of my hair behind my ear. 

"You're ok.." he said still looking t my eyes before looking down to my lips as I felt my skin get hot. 

"Thank you..." I said and he leaned forwards as I closed my eyes feeling his lips on mine before suddenly pulling away. We looked at each other for the moment almost like we were replaying the moment over in our heads.

"D, we can't...it's not right" I say looking down and he does too knowing that part of what I'm saying is right and yet all he wanted is to put his lips back onto mine.

"I care about you..." he whispered looking back up at me and our eyes met. I nodded knowing that he is seeking the truth. 

"I don't want to ruin something good for you...I care about you too much to do that" I say seeing his weak smile before feeling his hand on top of mine and I swore I felt a shiver  go down my spine.

"I'm tired of this, Y/N..." he said and I swallow before finding words to answer. 

"Of what?" I ask feeling my heart speed up even more

"Hiding how I feel about you. I can't anymore..and I am not saying what I have isn't good or that she isn't an amazing girl but she will never make me feel what I feel with you..." he says and I felt a tear escape again before scooting closer resting my head on his shoulder. 

"What do we do now?" I ask closing my eyes feeling him hold me closer to his chest. 

"I have no freaking idea.." he said before kissing the top of my head.