A new destiny

Chapter 4 | Daenerys

"I'll sail with the Unsullied and we will meet at Kings Road. After we have reunited again, we will ride together towards Winterfell". Jon's words kept ringing in my mind in the following days as I escorted the Dothraki on Kings Road. "What is wrong with you Jon Snow?" I wondered sadly as I flew in the open air with my children Drogon and Rhegal "I thought we were getting closer to each other. Don't you want me any longer? This is why you let me travel without you?". Jon's decision to partially agree with Sir Jorah had shocked me because even if I knew Sir Jorah's advice was a wise one, I hoped Jon insisted on me traveling with him. Since the King in the North had recovered from his quest in the North, he had seemed stressed, and concerned about the ones around me. "What happened to him?" I worriedly wondered, wishing I could reach out to him "Why don't you talk with me Jon Snow? I hate seeing you suffering in this way". The sound of a horn from the land interrupted my ruminations. I looked down and I saw the Dothraki camping for the night. Realizing it was useless to proceed since the night was close, I directed my children to the ground. "Anything to report Missi?" I asked my handmaiden when I descended from Drogon. "Fortunately no" Missandei replied as she escorted me to my tent. Up to today nothing has happened. I nodded in understanding even if I found all of this strange. We had been traveling on Kings Road for three days and since then, nothing had happened. "Is it possible that the fear of the Dead army has been enough to convince Cercei Lannister to avoid attacking our armies?" I wondered as I walked around the camp, Missandei at my side. After a while, we finally reached my tent and without wasting time, I entered in it. "Something wrong?" Missandei asked me as I busied myself to find something to eat. "What makes you think so?" I asked, as I sat on the table in my tent, inviting Missandei to sit as well. "Well" my friend started, unsure on how to formulate her observations. "Since we left the Unsullied you seem sad. Is it because of him?". I sighed, knowing it was futile to hide my moods from my best friend: we have been living together for three years by now so it wasn't a surprise we knew each other very well. "To be honest, I'm shocked Missi" I answered truthfully "I expected to be with Jon because he wanted to show everyone we were allies and more importantly, he wanted to spend his time with me and instead....". ".....He partially agreed with Sir Jorah's advice" Missandei concluded as we slowly started eating "I....know you are disappointed" she than added "But.....he cares about you". "How do you know this Missi?" I asked, my voice sounding perplexed "Did he do or said something about me which made you think this?". "When we spoke privately" my handmaiden remembered "He made both me and Sir Jorah promise something". "What was that about?" I asked, leaning closely to my best friend. I almost forgot the private conversation Jon had with both Missandei and Sir Jorah and I wanted to know everything about it. "He asked us....to survive in the following wars" Missandei finally said "He said it was imperative for your well being that both me and Sir Jorah survive". "But....." I said confusedly "This is not an easy promise to keep". "We know this" Missandei admitted "However he saw how devasted you were because of Viserion's death. He didn't want to see you mourning for another one close to you. These were his exact words". I stood in silence, not knowing how to reply "So....I mean something to you" I thought, hope starting to feel my heart. "I...also saw him constantly checking your children Daenerys" Missandei's voice brought me back to reality "He seemed afraid something could happen to them. He was so concerned about me, Sir Jorah and your children's wellbeing. "Whow, it seems Viserion's death had affected him very much" I admitted, astonishment printed on my face "Guess I'll have to thank him properly when we see each other again for his efforts to make all of you survive". "There is...another thing I noticed" Missandei said, a small smile on her face. "What is it Missi?" I asked, hoping my friend would reveal me other elements of Jon Snow's nature. "I...I saw him watching you" Missandei said giggling "When you turned your back on him, I saw him watching you. He had admiration printed on his face in addiction to being captivated by your beauty". "Go on" I urged Missandei, bliss on my face "I also....saw regret on his face" Missadei continued with a frown "He checked you constantly and the moment of admiration was always followed by regret. I don't want to imply anything but....I fear he thinks he is not enough for you, that he can't have you". Missandei's last words saddened me and I didn't know how to reply. "Did you understand why he behaves in this way?" I asked, my throat constricting, fighting to contain my tears. "No unfortunately" Missandei admitted in a saddened voice "I see he wishes he could claim you for himself but something prevents him from doing so, making him sad". "What can I do Missi?" I asked, my eyes full of tears "How can I...help him?". "How do you feel for him?" Missandei asked, taking my hands "I....I love him" I immediately answered without looking her "I like him physically and more importantly, I love his altruistic mentality". "Spend your time with him" Missandei urged me "Let him understand you are comfortable with him when you are alone. Let him discover you are happy when you are alone with him". I nodded, knowing Missi's words made sense. "How can I ask him to share with me what troubles him?" I asked, wishing I could do something to stop him suffering. "The only thing you can do is being close to him when he suffers, when he is afraid" Missandei answered. "Perhaps the fact you are comforting him will be enough to open himself to you. It is important he does this spontaneously, without you asking him to share with you what troubles him". "Thank you" I said softly, hugging my best friend "Thank you for having given me hope". "You are welcome" Missandei said smiling "I simply do my best to constantly keep you in a good mood. I...hope I will be able to fulfill Lord Snow's request". "You will do it" I replied, a smile on my face "I know you will".