A "USE TO BE" Love (sequel to my suppose to be life)2014 - DISCONTINUED

Chapter 11: Recognize (deleted scene)

CHRES P.O.V

Me: *knocks on raven's door*

Raven: who is it?

Me: Open the damn door

Raven: *opens the door* What happened?

I walked in, pushing her out of the way. She looked at me crazy and shut the door. The shit Joyce told me better not be true, life is already fucked up enough.

Raven: what's wrong daddy? *tries to hug me*

Me: *pushes her away* Don't call me that shit! We wasn't suppose to fuck, the first time or the second!

Raven: but last-

Me: SHUT THE FUCK UP, and sit down!

Raven: *nods and sits down on the bed*

Me: Now imma ask you this, and yo ass better tell the motherfuckin' truth okay?!

Raven: yes sir

Me: Is aliyah my daughter?

Raven: ...*clears throat and looks away* Yea

Me: Raven.

Raven: *sigh* ...No..No she's not your daughter! She-she ain't even my daughter chresanto, I'm sorry! *busts out in tears* ITS NOT MY FAULT THO I SWEAR. *pulling my shirt* I HAD AN ABORTION AND-AND I DIDN'T KNOW WHERE TO FIND YOU OR WHAT THE FUCK TO DO EVEN IF I DID FIND YOU! I WENT TO THE AIRPORT AND I KIDNAPPED THAT BABY! *cries on my chest* I kidnapped a motherfuckin' child chresanto...who the fuck am I? *cries harder* I only contacted you because I needed money. That piece of shit I'm drivin' ain't even mine, I stole that motherfucker! Imma go to jail chresanto!

What-the-fuck. Its all a lie, everything. I lost Joyce to a lie...I crushed her to a motherfuckin' lie. If Joyce is seen in public with aliyah she could go to jail, over a lie.

Me: raven...wh-what the fuck? Y-you gon' send joyce to jail, I...I gotta get the fuck out of here! *leaves*

Raven: TELL THEM IM SORRYY!... I'm so sorry..

JOYCE P.O.V

I put my hair in a ponytail and changed my clothes. No need to wipe my mascara, its all gonna run down anyway, and its the only make up I wear besides lipstick or lip gloss. I laid down and thought of the last words I heard him speak. "I never wanna see you again". I never thought it would come to this. He was in love with me just a month ago and even though I didn't feel the same, how could he just suddenly hate me? Wow...love is so crazy.

*door bell rings*

I don't wanna move but it could be someone important. I drug myself to the door and asked who it was. "Chresanto" I heard him reply from the other side. I opened it and he walked in and locked the door.

Me: c'mon your stuff is in the same place.

Chres: *grabs my wrist* that's not why I'm here

Me: whatchu want? I'm not in the mood

Chres: You...*sigh* you were right, about everything. Liyah ain't my baby, liyah ain't even her real name.

Me: *sigh* what the fuck chresanto

Chres: I confronted raven and she said that she had an abortion, she kidnapped liyah from the airport.

Me: *eyes wide* I got a missing child livin' in my house? *covers my mouth and runs my fingers through my hair* Dammit Chresanto!

Chres: Don't worry, I'm here to get her. She's my problem

Me: But you might get arrested

Chres: It doesn't matter

Me: Yes it does *wipes mascara* Layla needs her father

Chres: We'll figure it out tomorrow, where's liyah?

Me: she's at kiera's with layla. I'll call ki but she's keeping them for the night

Chres: *sigh* alright but keep liyah in the house

Me: duh nigga

Chres: Aye, why I smell cologne in here?

Me: *looks at him* Why does it matter?

Chres: cause..it just does.

Me: I had company, that's why you smell cologne

Chres: You fuckin' somebody huh?

Me: Nigga don't even go thcauseause you just cheated on me for the second time, if I was fuckin' somebody it wouldn't be ya damn business. What, you think I forgot or sumn?

Chres: nah its just-

Me: save the bullshit for that lyin' ass bitch you fuckin' wit, and don't over step yo boundaries *mumbles* can't believe yo ass *goes upstairs*

Chres: Aye

Me: *standing at the top of the stairs* What

Chres: come here right quick

I sighed and came back down the stairs. I stopped on the third step and looked down at him.

Chres: *hugs my thighs and looks me in the eyes* What is it gon' take for me to get you back?

Me: There's no chance anymore

Chres: *rubbing up and down my thighs* I need you J

Me: okay, and? You had a choice to keep me but yet and still you chose to fuck up

Chres: Joyce, remember us. I know you remember *hands on my waist*

Me: I'll always remember, that's why it hurts so bad. You ever wanted to forget everything?

Chres: yea

Me: but you couldn't tho could you?

Chres: nah

Me: yea, its pretty fucked up. I hate you for what you did, more than you know. I don't know how...*looks down and cries* ...I don't know how I'm standing here talking to you. I don't know why I'm letting you touch me like its okay *pushes his hands off of my waist* and I don't know how its even possible for me to love you like I do but I want you to know.. *looks him in the eyes and wipes my tears* I have some new, real feelings for somebody else and when we fuck, I won't be thinking of you. I know you were thinking of me when you were with raven but when he finally comes over to lay me on that bed, I'll let him do it. I'll do him like I've never done before. Now when your hoe goes off to jail for all the shit she's done, don't come crying to me. *whispers* I'll already be pregnant with his baby

He stared at me with the most hurt,confused,shocked expression. He opened his mouth but hesitated to speak, he just nodded and left. I said a lot of things just then..but I meant them. I do have real feelings for Ron. I want things to get deeper between us. I don't give a fuck about how chresanto feels about it. Fuck his feelings.

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I know it was short but its the deleted scene from the last chapter. Lemme know if y'all want another update today.