A "USE TO BE" Love (sequel to my suppose to be life)2014 - DISCONTINUED

Chapter 14: Angel

KIERA P.O.V

I found out that my sister won some awards last night. So I called her. She brought it to my attention that I need to get out of bed. So I'm going to take a little tour of California today. I need to do some soul searching honestly. I need to be on an island. But I don't wanna be alone on a island..with no lover.

I put on some blue jean booty shorts, a red tank top, and red doc martens. I added some dark red lipstick and an american flag print bandana. I put on my hipster shades and left in my "safari" jeep.

Now that I think about it, don't really have any friends here. I think I might move away and start over. The only friends I have are Ponelopi and Kathrin. They're in and out of LA though. Kathrin is coming back in few days to stay. Anybody else I socialize with, other than my sister, they're acquaintances that I met through my sister.

Now that I'm unemployed, I'm gonna find someone to help me start my own clothing line. I've got some amazing ideas but I can't put them out to the public on my own, I'm not exactly famous so its gonna take time. Of course im willing to wait on the build up.

I would ask Joyce but she's much too busy. She was the star of the Grammies last night, she has no time for me of course.

I turned on Love Song by Rihanna and Future. I know its old but its still one of my favorite songs. It speaks to me in a lot of different ways.

I pulled up at Starbucks and went in. All I wanted was a coffee and a thinking space. So I got a coffee and then went to the beach. Weird. I'm on the beach wearing boots. Oh well.

There was an open table up on a hill so sat down at it. My thoughts aren't even complicated, its just that I'm the only one I have to talk to.

Why is Joyce's success building and why is mine dropping? I was a tattoo artist but I got fired because I kept oversleeping. Our mom just died. Our pride and joy..our rock. And joyce got over it in two months. Two motherfucking months has done nothing for me. All I've done is think. And my thoughts still aren't gathered.

My thoughts were interrupted when a guy with a big curly afro walked up to the table. I only noticed him because he was blocking the sunlight.

"is this seat taken?" He asked

"No, go ahead. I don't mind" I offered

"Thanks" he said as he pulled the chair out and sat in it. I didn't mind because there were only two chairs in all, nobody else would be joining the table.

So anyway, All I wanna know is..do I have bad luck or something? Like was this happening for a reason? Is God teaching me a lesson? I haven't done anything. I need to get this off my chest. Its breaking me.

"Hey umm" I started   "can I talk to you? I mean we don't know each other and I'll probably never see you again so..."

"Sure, why not" he shrugged

"Okay so, I have a sister and our mom recently died-"

"Sorry for your loss" he apologized

"Its fine. But our mom died just two months ago and she's already over it. Like, how could she do that? Is she just strong or did she forget about her? Plus, she's the one who told me that mom had cancer..it hurts me so bad that she ..she doesn't even care"

"Maybe its not that she doesn't care, she just had to get over it in order to be happy. She just learned to accept it"

"Probably. But on the other hand, her career is building amazingly. I mean I thank God for my sister's success but where's mine? I've been a good person all my life and my dreams haven't come true, I'm not in love, I've never been in love, and I just lost my job. Its not fair..at all" A tear formed in my eye as I said that. It saddens me to hear those words exit my mouth.

"I get it. You just want everything to be easy, but its not. My friend recently broke up with her boyfriend of seven years and I thought it was gonna be easy for her to fall in love with me..but it wasn't. And I snapped. I told I hated her and I said I never wanted to see her again. Now I regret every word." He looked away at the water. I could tell it bothered him a lot more than words could explain.

"Wow" I said

"Yea..just don't let it break you like I did" he looked at me. "Because if it breaks you, you and your sister might never speak again. And you love her right?"

"With all my heart" I sniffed

"Then be strong and tell her how you feel. That's what's best for the situation."

"Thanks-whats your name?" I asked

"Jacob"

"Thanks jacob" I smiled and wiped my tears "I'm kiera"

"No problem kiera. And don't cry. I know a beautiful girl like you will find love." He said with a soft smile. He got up and hugged me. I inhaled his cologne as I hugged him back. He smells like heaven. My God.

"Mmmm. You smell heavenly" I cooed

"So do you" he pulled away with an even bigger smile. "Well, it was nice meeting you but I gotta get out of here" he said as he ran his fingers through his afro.

"Wait, can I have your number?"

"Of course" he typed it into my phone "Anytime you need to talk, just let me know"

"I will, thanks"

"No problem. See ya around" he said before walking away.

That was so refreshing. I feel much better. Who knew a guy I didn't even know could change my mood? Wow. Maybe I will call him sometime.

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I know its short but I needed kiera to have her shine. What do y'all think about Jacob being her angel? Too much?