Since the day I said that to Alice we haven't talked. You could tell that we wanted to talk to each other but we don't know what to say. It's pain. And I could talk to her but I don't think she'd listen. Considering that I told her that she doesn't understand what a death of a beloved family member is like. I mean it was her sister who died. Why am I such a bad person? God I don't want to live anymore.
