Just a dream ~ Jetra

Something Wrong..

Jesse's POV

it's been about a few weeks since that incident happened.. I still can't get her words out of my head.. sometimes I would sit there, sitting there in my thoughts alone.. or sometimes with my siblings or Lukas.. but it's hard because I'm so used to being with Petra..

she's right.. I thought to myself as I sat down underneath a tree near BeaconTown. I am an idiot.. why would a girl like her ever like a guy like me.. she's so beautiful.. so kind.. and I'm just.. worthless..

always staring at them, Petra making her big warm smiles and Jack staring at my lovable best friend, telling her his fake stories. Why.. why does she believe them? why does it make me so jealous.. so heavy.. I know why.. because he's a liar.. a terrible liar who tells his false stories.. why would Petra believe in such lies? Why would she believe that stupid little coward who took her away from me? 

i sighed deeply and in frustration as I looked up at the bright sunset, the parrots and birds chirping around as the buzzing bees collected honey from the flowers in the meadow as some went in their hive for the night. I growled slightly as I looked down at the ground.. I hate it.. I hate the fact that I'm not enough to make her laugh or smile, I hate the fact that I'm not enough to cheer her up. I just wanna be enough for her.. what can I do to do that?..

"Jesse?", I heard a voice calling me.. yet, I don't know if it's a hallucination.. I felt empty again.. such as the time my pet, Reuben died for being so brave and heroic..

"Jesse!!", the voice called again. It sounded closer and it seemed to be filled with worriedness. I opened my dark brown eyes slightly. I managed to make out the figure of a familiar auburn haired warrior, her dark eyes were glossy, almost as if she was letting out tears. I tried to move my body but something seemed to be stopping me.. what's going on? I need help.. I felt her shaking me.. why was she shaking me so much? is she trying to control me? she's shaking me with so much force.. yelling at me, yelling out my name, telling me to wake up.. why is she trying to help a fool such as I? Why her? Why does it have to be me? Why not someone else? I suddenly felt a firm embrace as I heard sobs, her tears going down my shirt.. all I saw was darkness, what's wrong with me? so many questions left unanswered.. suddenly I finally opened my emotionless, weary eyes, not knowing that I had them closed the whole time. There she was..  Petra.. her face was wet with tears. She then gave me another firm embrace, letting out a few more tears as they ran down her face. 

"J-Jesse?.. a-are you.. are you okay?..", Petra asked me, her voice cracking. "y-you've been acting different ever since Jack joined.."

I growled under my breath. She mentions that coward again.. I wanted to say a lot of things but I sighed and gave her a dull emotionless look, pushing her away from me as I stood up. "I'm fine, Petra now go and enjoy your time with Jack.."

I then walked away..

Petra's POV

"Jesse..", I muttered as I watched him walk off.. I didn't feel the same anymore.. what happened to my best friend?! He's been acting like this for the last two months, even after Jack went back home to his workshop.. I felt like crying again..

What happened to my best friend? Why is Jesse acting so different? Ever since he started acting different, Nikki and Jess have been being so distant with me.. was it something I did? What did I do wrong?.. I walked to the old treehouse that Jesse used to live in.. it was the closest shelter I was near anyway. I was surprised to find out it wasn't too destroyed by the Wither Storm since its near EnderCon. 

memories started flooding back to me as I laid down on Jesse's old bed.. wondering what I might have done wrong to Jesse.. or anything that made him like this.. there was more then a million possibilities.. I remembered the last time before he changed.. he let Jack join us and even let him stay with us for a while. 

I continued thinking about Jesse.. and might what have happened to him.. until suddenly I realized.. "Jack.. joined..", I muttered. They clicked like two pieces of a puzzle.. was he jealous? Is that why he's like this? But why? I need answers..

there are a couple of people I could talk to.. Jess and Nikki are obvious choices but they are being distant with me.. every time I tried to go and talk to them, they'll just answer with "sorry, Petra, I'm busy right now" or "not now Petra, I'll talk to you later"

the last person I thought was Lukas.. he would probably know what's going on! I need to see Lukas..

meanwhile..

Nikki's POV

I still can't believe how my brother was acting.. he used to be so bright.. so fun.. and now he's so emotionless.. and all because of a blonde boy named Jack.. I growled every time I would see him with Petra, how much it hurt my brother. I knew how much he despised Jack.. I did as well. Throughout the couple of weeks, I and my sister, Jess became distant with Petra.. ignoring her as best we could, helping our big brother as best we could.. he would talk to us and Lukas as well.. but he still didn't get any better.. no matter how much we comforted him.. 

I couldn't take it anymore and I could tell that Jess couldn't keep in it either.. once he got home, we took him to the bathroom so we could have him see his reflection. Jess and I looked at each other with concerned eyes before turning to our older brother. Jesse just stared at his reflection in the mirror, his dark, emotionless eyes looking back at himself. his grey and black shirt seemed to be slightly wet while his dark brown covered his dark chocolate eyes.

"Jesse.. I know it's been hard but you haven't been yourself for a while..", Jess told him as Jesse just remained silent.

"yeah..", I agreed. "just look.. this isn't the Jesse we know and love.. we need our big brother back.. I know things aren't working well with Petra but we need you, Jesse.. the real you.."

Jesse's eyes suddenly went glossy as some tears fell down his light brown skin. Jess wiped the tears coming down his cheek before giving him a tight hug. I hugged him also as I patted his back and gave him a comforting smile. After a while, he wraps his arms around us, one around me and the other around Jess.

Jesse sighed heavily, I could see the sadness and jealousy in his eyes. "I-I'm sorry..", he muttered. "It's just that-."

"no.. it's okay..", Jess reinsured him. "don't be sorry.."

"we know.. we know that you just miss her", I added.  "but I think you should take your mind off her for a while.."

"h-how..", he asked, his voice cracking. "she's my best friend.. and I love her and I want her to be happy.."

Jess looked at me as I looked at her back. I knew we read each other's mind.. we knew exactly what to do..