"LET ME LOVE YOU"[on HIATUS]

"Why am I alive?"

Wei Ying woke up feeling refreshed. He slightly frowned when he woke up to a peaceful place. He remembered dying and this is not hell, he was sure of that. He sprung up the bed and immediately regretted it when he felt all dizzy. Memories of before he passed out caught him off guard. He remembered being summoned by Mo Xuanyu, killing off the Mo family, insulting Jin Ling, meeting Jiang Cheng, Jiang Cheng whipping him with zidian and him attempting to run away, but Jiang Cheng had whipped him and he remembered passing out.

Wei Ying looked around the white walls and unconsciously inhaled the sandalwood scent that only belonged to a certain man. A man he didn't wish to meet. He finally registered where he was and knew that man will be back. A question has stuck to him 'WHY DID HE BRING ME BACK HERE?''

Wei Ying took time to familiarize himself with the bright room. He was used to the dark and when suddenly stepping into the light was giving him chills. He spent half of his life shrouded in darkness. In fact he is the Darkness.

He was still lost in himself when Lan Wangji walked in with a tray of food on hand. Wei Ying was mad, angry and felt hatred towards him. Years back this man had promised to stand by his side, but at the last battle he had faced him off and watched him die. How foolish was he to think Lan Wangji, the most respected and righteous cultivator will stand by him, a demonic cultivator the most hated and infamous Yilling Patriarch. Clearly their hearts were filled with the same ambitions, they vowed to protect the weak and helpless. They vowed to bring light into the world. They promised to stand by each others side. Because he cultivated by the resentful energy, that made his vows and promises invalid.

Lan Wangji saw the detached and cold look Wei Ying had given him. He knew that right now Wei Ying needed an explanation. Lan Zhan had waited for 13 years. 13 Years he played inquiry, refusing to believe. Refusing to believe that his beloved had died. All these years he had been rebelling against his sect, sect rules, clan, elders and family. Lan Wangji knew that he had to be patient with this man. Yes, he has hurt his beloved and he was willing to fix things. Back then he did not know the truth. After the battle Lan Wangji found out that there had been two melodies being played. He remembered specifically that Wei Ying never attacked the Jiang sect. He was attacking every other sect, but he had spared the Jiang sect. 'Jiang Cheng' Even thinking about that man made him mad.

He was mad that Jiang Cheng had Wei Ying's love and care. He was mad even at the thought that Wei Ying grew up with him. 'JEALOUS!!' That's how he was. But for what? Wei Ying tried being friends with him, but he rejected his offer not once, but multiple times. When the relationship was starting to settle in, he had to go against him, for what? Nothing but for the man he called uncle.

When the two melodies started being played the Jiang sect was attacked also. When the resentful energy attacked Jiang Cheng, he knew that something was wrong. It was later that he had realized how he had wronged Wei Ying, but it was too late.

Lan Zhan knew that justifying his actions to Wei Ying is pointless, but if given a chance to go back to the last battle he will choose to stand by Wei Ying. It is either they come back alive or die together, but....A Yuan. Knowing there's a child waiting for Xian gege he has to compromise....

"Why am I here?" He got out of his trance when a cold and harsh tone of the man's voice sounded. "Make amends." Lan Zhan replied; voice was strained. He felt a thousand unbearable emotions that he couldn't explain, but he knew he wanted to let out.

"hmph....Lan Wangji Lan Wangji. How can you kidnap an innocent man like me." 'Lies' echoed Lan Zhan in his mind. 'Nothing about you is innocent.' "Wei Ying I ha-" "DON'T CALL ME THAT!!" Wei Ying roared at Lan Zhan. He slightly lowered his voice and continued, "You do not deserve to call me that." It almost came as a whisper, but he was still aggrieved by Lan Zhan. "Where have you been all these years?" Lan Zhan asked, refusing to address Wei Ying formally. Wei Ying snorted before answering, "Why does it matter? So you can lock me up in Gusu? And have the Gusu Lan Sect proclaim how the Demonic Cultivator is serving his time? So you can torture me for injuring you clan members? No. I don't think I would have told you where I was. Because you are curious I will tell you where I was. I was in a dark place and I got used to it to a point I'm thinking of painting this place red with blood. Preferably your blood......*sigh* but what can I do? I'm already at my lowest, a few torture tools could kill me instantly." Wei Ying's voice was filled with disdain. It is the same voice he used when speaking to someone he already considered dead.

Lan Zhan was listening. He didn't want to miss any important information. "Please eat your food and drink the medicine when done." Lan Zhan's voice was unusually calm. He acted as if the man was not disgusted by him right now. "I'll come back later." With that he gripped tightly on his sword and left.

"Why am I alive?" Wei Ying asked himself this question. His stomach grumbled loudly and he knew that he had to eat lest he becomes a hungry ghost. He got to the table and surprisingly saw that some of the food were to his licking. Not too spicy considering the weak body he had. He suddenly chose to be hungry and threw away the food and medicine and walked out the doors of Jingshi. Scoffing lightly 'He even brought me to his personal room.' he thought to himself. 

"Senior Mo." A youthful voice greeted him as he was about to walk out of the gates of Jinghsi. He saw a young handsome boy. His features were the most obvious he had seen. He looked like Lan Zhan, but also looked like him. 'A Yuan?' Wei Ying looked at the boy more. How could he not remember him. He remembers playing with talisman and made one that could get both men and barren women pregnant. He was still testing it and he never knew that he unknowingly activated it. He remembered that at that time him and Lan Zhan were still new to being physically intimate. They had sex almost everyday and the talisman was more than effective. He was ecstatic when he learned that he was pregnant. Wen Qing had vomited blood and passed out for a week leaving Wen Ning to take care of him and his sister. He remembered the cramps and labour pains. He remembered being told he remained unconscious for three days straight after child birth. He also remembered how Lan Zhan held a grudge against his own son for bringing pain at him (Wei Ying).

He smiled at the young boy and noticed how his ear tips slightly turned a small shade of pink, clearly never have met someone smiling so brightly at him. The boy bowed politely at him and introduced himself, "Lan Yuan, Lan Sizhui." Wei Ying slowly patted the boy on the head and smiled brightly. "Can I call you A Yuan?" Wei Ying asked trying to imitate a youthful attitude. Lan Sizhui saw him smile brightly and his tone was filled with curiosity and innocence. He knew Senior Mo has some mental issues so he couldn't bear to reject him. "Yes Senior Mo, you can call me A Yuan." Another reason he allowed it, is because Sizhui doesn't have that much of relatives. And only his father calls him A Yuan and even he did so in private. Anyway no one will fight someone who is not strong mentally so he was happy someone will address him that way.

"Ah.....Senior Mo, Hanguang-Jun said that I must accompany you. Would you like a tour around Cloud Recesses?" Sizhui asked feeling ecstatic. "Sure A Yuan." Wei Ying chirped happily. One good thing happened today and that is meeting his son Wei Yuan. 

Lan Sizhui was happily showing Senior Mo around. He found out Senior Mo seemed to know Cloud Recesses more than him, but he didn't pay mind to it. He liked how Mo Xuanyu is a conversationalist. He talked about anything with him. Sizhui noted how Senior Mo called A Yuan out lovingly and heartedly and Senior Mo seemed to be talking to his loved one when he called him. 

Wei Ying on the other hand knew that A Yuan was observing. He didn't care. If he can't be known as his mother than he can be his Senior Mo who is willing to sacrifice himself for him. He will ingrain his image in his mind. He will be present in his life with whatever role that is convenient at that time. 

Both Lan Sizhui and Wei Ying chatted happily. A Yuan touring Wei Ying even though it seemed that Wei Ying is touring A Yuan. Lan Zhan followed behind them quietly. He knew that Wei Ying would have figured out that A Yuan was their son. However he was worried if Wei Ying will think he is using their son to bring them closer, but thought wrong as it seemed that Wei Ying is behaving like a senior. 

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