dream smp lore thoughts and events

NIKI LORE 06/01/21

CW:// grief, talk about manipulation, mentions of s**f h**m, mentions of a potential ED, insomnia, general talk about trauma

NOTE: these quotes aren't word for word! I wrote this down while watching the lore live/for the first time. also if there is just a quote with a name behind it, that's just who said it! comment any questions you have and once again this is all a word vomit

- everything is black and white
- she doesn't in at techno's place
- niki sighs and talks about will
- "I heard he's back. Why did no one tell me your (she looks at a painting of will) back? Why do you have to be back?! I thought I got rid of you and the thought of you in my head. And now your back, what do you want why are you back? And why here? The only place I feel safe! You always have to be where I- I feel safe!"
- Niki says she won't be manipulated this time
- Niki says "I have to get back" and starts to run
- Niki addresses concern for who he could manipulate next and she believes it could be Jack
- She becomes sad because Wilbur didn't check up on her and he "never checked up on me"
- Niki accidentally plays the wrong song (blooper)
- Niki asks why Wilbur would change because he never changes and he never cared
- She then begins to question why Dream, of all people, would revive Wilbur
- "I guess he was fond of him. Two maniacs leading countries, leading places and people and forgetting about those they care about just for power"
- Niki says Wilbur sold his soul for power
- "The world revolves around Wilbur"
- "Techno, the person that helped me. I'm not gonna blame it on other people again and look where it got me."
- Niki reveals she can't even sleep anymore
- Niki reveals when grieving she was starving herself and throwing herself off her building to regenerate health and "heal"
- Niki looks for something
- She finds "Wills diamonds"
- "I can't believe no one told me. I guess they knew what would happen. Maybe they didn't care."
- Niki asks why she should even care
- Niki says she covered up the tnt so people wouldn't see it (when Wilbur put it there for the festival)
- Niki digs a hole in the wall and buries the diamonds talking about how they (3 diamonds) were Wilburs first gift to her
- Niki says she chooses to have Wilbur be a memory so he can't hurt her and make false promises and then just walk away
- "Because now I have friends and people who care about me. And I know that you never did."
- Niki asks herself what Dream would want from Wilbur and what Wilburs plan is
- Niki goes to the L'manburg ruins because she wants to see it. All of it. Everything he abandoned
- She talks about how she waited for Wilbur to get her out of Manburg under Schlatts rule
- Niki goes into L'manburg and she says he would have loved it under Tubbo's rule
- Niki says she couldn't save anyone even though that's all she ever wanted
- Niki calls herself naive for trying to build her city
- Niki says all Wilbur wants is what he can't have
- Niki wants to see Wilbur so she can know why he did everything he did
- Niki leaves L'manburg
- Niki stares at roses and the bench as she walks along the prime path. She looks at everything silently
- Niki goes through the community nether portal