Light shone through the table lamp as Kavin continued to work on his next class presentation, his teacher had chosen him to represent their faculty for the techno fest coming up in two months and while he had enough time to prepare, he preferred to get things done on time.
He stretched as he checked the time, it had been 11:00 in the night, Kavin groaned opening his emails for one last check, finding a rule book for the fest and his acceptance letter to the business diploma program he had applied for, it was going to be a stretch but if he worked right he would end up completing both the things simultaneously.
Sighing as he got up to drink water and take off his face mask, he had to take care of his skin too. His phone rang, alerting him of an incoming call. Kavin put down the glass and saw the name on the screen
P (advisor)
He immediately picked up, speaking into it immediately as a smile formed on his face.
K- "Phukong, how are you doing?"
P- "I am fine, I got the information you needed, but I have a class at 12 in the morning and practice sessions all afternoon, can you come in the morning?"
K- "Wait, gimme a second."
Kavin flipped through his schedule book, he had a class for 9 and 10. He wouldn't be able to make it but he needed those files and also had to check on the progress of their project. Even though Phukong was more than capable it wasn't nice for a senior to let the junior handle all the work.
P- "So? Can you make it?"
K- "Yeah I will be there at 8, we can also discuss the project progress."
P- "See, I told you he could do it."
K- "Is Mil there with you?"
Kavin chuckled as he heard rustling sounds on the other side and some noises of slight argument.
P- "yeah he is."
K- "okay then, good night to both of you."
P- "Bye kavy."
Kavin hummed to himself as he laid on the bed, the information was ready but he had yet to decide what he wanted to do with it. He had asked for it but he hadn't really thought of any reason other than curiosity, maybe it would give him some leverage over Thyme.
Thyme
Thyme again, Kavin groaned as his head went back to the asshole he had called friend for this long. The anger he felt inside him had been completely out of the world when Thyme had said those words. He thought he had gotten to being slut shamed and looked down upon by others simply because of the path he took to get to his goal but hearing it come from the man he had considered his best friend, from the man he had loved. The pain hit entirely different.
But more than the pain it seemed to be anger that was ruling his head, as the only thing it seemed to come up with was- hurt him harder than he hurt you.
Mil had called him petty, but picking this fight with Thyme would result in a fall out between all four of them. He would biome the reason for the F4's downfall, would Ren and MJ forgive him if he broke the pact?
But then again would it be wrong for him to do so? If you looked at it, Thyme had been the one to break Kavin's trust, he had been the one who attacked Kavin not the other way round. Thyme had thrown the first punch and whatever he does in the future would be considered self defence right. Even it is the other's destruction.
Didn't Thyme have it coming? For toying with his feelings, for making excuses and then blaming Kavin for everything.
It wouldn't be a bad idea to hurt him, would it?
Maybe it was bad but Kavin really wanted to do it, he wanted Thyme to hurt. He wanted Thyme to hurt more than he had, he wanted Thyme to cry harder than he had.
Maybe Kavin was just a bad person.
He was a bad person, who didn't hesitate before using someone for his own well being. Someone who didn't hesitate to bend the rules to get what he wanted, someone who would manipulate others into doing his bidding, turning them into his little puppets, someone who would spread his legs for anyone who was useful to him.
He had heard it a lot hadn't he, how he just couldn't be good.
There had been a time when he had thought that he had found his people, the people he could love without fear of being judged, people he could be honest with. But today the illusion had broken, how many people did he have?
How many could he trust? If any-
Everyone already seemed to consider him bad his entire life, how bad would it be if he just gave into it once.
RINGGGGGGG
Kavin shook awake, scrambling to grab the phone, reading MJ's name flashing on the screen. He groaned and flopped back, cursing a little as he picked up the call, "What?" he snapped.
"Well, I missed you to Kavyy." MJ said sarcastically, as he made kissing noises.
"Get to the point." Kavin sighed.
"That's the point Kavyyyyy, I mith you." MJ drawled.
"Are you drunk?" Kavin questioned, a smile forming onto his lips.
"Dudeee, you know you are my best friend right? Like I would literally die for you." MJ continued, trying to sound all serious, but the slurring of his words made it very clear to Kavin that the other was in fact very drunk.
"Is Gil there with you?" Kavin asked. Running a hand through his hair.
"Yeah he is, but why are you asking about him. I literally just told you that you are my best friend!" MJ retorted, sounding angry.
"You are my best friend too MJ." Kavin sighed, his features softening as he heard the other mutter things to himself.
"Good, man fuck that Thyme!" MJ cheered, "You deserve better, like literally anyone would fall over their own dick for you man."
"Yeah," Kavin chuckled, MJ was rarely openly affectionate so he decided to humour him a little. "Even you?"
"Bruh, if I was into men. I would have totally sucked you off the day we met." MJ slurred, making Kavin burst out laughing.
"I know," Kavin replied as he wiped the tear that formed by the side of his face, "Hey let's hang out tomorrow."
"YASSSSS, okayyyy lesss hang out tomor-" snored filled the rest of the message, bringing up another laughter from Kavin. Talking to MJ had always made him feel a little lighter, it wasn't like they shared secrets or talked deep or anything that's what Ren was there for, but talking to MJ just felt like things would work out.
He hung up the phone, not worried as Gil was with MJ. Gil was to MJ what Mil was to Kavin, while they hadn't had the same start as Kavin and Mil had, they had their own strong bond and Gil could always be trusted to take care of the man.
He tried to remember what he had been thinking about before his call with MJ, but before he knew it, he had drifted off to sleep. Smile still present on his lips.
He did have a best friend, more than one and just because Thyme couldn't be considered a part of it any longer, doesn't mean that he was alone.
He wasn't going to be alone.
That was his thing.
Kavin would never be alone.
Notes:
What do you all think about this????
What do you think Kavin will do next? What would be the things revealed in the information that Phukong found?
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