Metanoia

Feelings

Tobio wiped the sweat off his forehead. The sun is blazing down at him. His grandmother is on his right pulling carrots while Shinsuke is on his left, checking out the tomatoes. Tobio is in the middle helping Shinsuke pick the ripe tomatoes and putting them in a basket. It's the weekend and while most of his free days he spends with Atsumu and Osamu, he decided to help his grandmother today.

Plus the twins were out with their relatives today so even if he had free time he wouldn't have been able to hang out with them. Squinting his eyes Tobio looked up at the sky and gave out a content sigh. The sun may be smiling down on them, but he appreciated the warmness of it.

"Nana, can I ask ya somethin'?"

Tobio turned his attention to his right as his grandmother pulls the last of carrots before giving him her undivided attention. He felt how Shinsuke stopped moving the tomato plants to hear what he wanted to say. Tobio felt his cheeks flush and he blamed it on the sun, it may not be boiling, but it is still hot, nonetheless.

"Um, what does...it mean if...when ya keep thinkin' about certain' words that someone told ya...like it makes yer heartbeat fast and yer face turns red. Does it mean yer sick or somethin' else?"

His face flushed even redder as he remembers Atsumu's words.

Sure Tobio-kun. And by the way, I wasn't lying when I called ya cute

"Well, sweetheart it all depends on what kind of words that person said and what they meant by them." Said his grandmother. He felt Shinsuke's eyes on him and he could tell he was thinking of who it could be. Tobio just hoped he wouldn't ask.

"They...complimented me. It's not the first time they do it it's just that it's the first time it ever made me feel this way."

Shinsuke hummed deep in thought as his nana grabbed his hand and squeezed it.

"Sweetheart, I think it's better if ya find out with time. Trust me those feelings are not bad, no they are wonderful. It means that the person cares for ya, but I can't exactly define them for ya. Everyone feels that way at some point in their life but it's all different for them."

Tobio nodded, he understood what his nana meant. Everyone has feelings, they are just different from others. Tobio's feelings are different from Shinsuke's and nana's just like their feelings are different from his.

Still, his nana's words did clear a bit of the confusion. Now he knows Atsumu isn't teasing him and that he means his words. With a small grin, Tobio returns his attention to the tomato plants, his heart beating a bit faster than before.

They spend their afternoon cleaning their small garden from weeds and pulling out the vegetables that were ready to be harvested. Tobio inhaled the smell of earth and relaxed. Ever since he was a child he loved the natural smell of nature, it always managed to calm him down.

Dusting his pants, Tobio helped Shinsuke carry the basket full of tomatoes inside while their grandma put away the gardening supplies. Soon enough they finished carrying the baskets back inside and cleaned up before dinner. Tobio dried his hair and looks at the mirror in his room. His hair was above his shoulders but still long enough so that the tips touched some of his shoulders.

Running his fingers through it Tobio tilted his head in thought. He has been thinking of doing a new hairstyle considering that he has been wearing a bun for a while now. Getting his phone from the nightstand, Tobio took a seat on his bed and scrolled through the internet searching for new hairstyles that were simple to do.

There were some styles he liked and others that he questioned, still, he couldn't find one that called his attention. He was about to give up when his eyes paused in one picture. The hairstyle wasn't difficult nor was it weird. It is simple and something Tobio could do without taking too much time in the bathroom.