Can't Buy My Love | Taehyung x Reader

It's Not Right

I stood in front of his door. After Hea's call I basically immediately went here.

     'Y/n, what are you doing here?' He asked as he opened the door, a bit perplexed. Probably because I hadn't come by unannounced before.

     'I think you know what I am doing here' I replied with a trembling voice.

    'Did you go to the nursing home today?' I then asked as I got hardly any reaction from him.

He smiled softly at me, perhaps not noticing how tense I was.

     'I did yes'

      'Please take your money back' I stated in a harsh tone.

His soft smile turned into a frown

       'What do you mean?'

       'I know you meant well but please, take your money back' I repeated 

       'But why? I wanted to do this for you, so that you don't need to work two jobs and perhaps can focus on the things you really want. Like your painting, join a painting school or something. I don't understand why you're not happy' he explained baffled.

        'No you couldn't possibly understand because you never had people paying things for you' I replied agitated.

       'I don't understand y/n, why are you reacting this way? it really isn't that big a thing' this time his tone went from confused to angry.

        'but it is to me, why didn't you talk to me about it?' I also raised my voice in response.

         'I wanted to surprise you.. but I guess that was a mistake' Taehyung explained, still obviously puzzled and with a hint of irritation as to why I was reacting in such an extreme way.

I shook my head

        'no, this whole thing is a mistake' I eventually let out. 

       'What?'    Taehyung's eyes widened in incomprehension. I stared down, having trouble to actually say the words but I knew I had to.

       'We, us. It's not right. I am sorry. Please take the money back.'

         'What are you saying?' Taehyung's confusion turned into angst, this worried expression on his face.

         'I can't.. What if... I am not ready..' I rambled on, while tears filled my eyes. It didn't make sense to him, but I kept thinking about the possible implications of this action.

        'What?'

        'I am breaking up with you' I eventually let out

His eyes also filled up with tears. My heart already was taking a hit but seeing him like that made things even worse.

         'What? y/n we need to talkabout this. You can't just do this like so suddenly. I don't understand'

        'I can, and I am. I am sorry' I apologized again. I was at a point in which I couldn't hold back my tears anymore, and my cheeks got covered by my unstoppable tears.

Taehyung stepped towards me but I immediately stepped back.

        'We were so happy yesterday, it can't be about this only. Please I don't understand, y/n tell me you're not serious.'

           'I should go' I let out, even though it was really the last thing I wanted to do. But considering what he had done and his reaction to my request to take it back, it just wasn't right.

Why did he have to do that? why?

 I ran out, not that I had a thought through plan about what I was supposed to do now. I mean waiting for the bus in the evening wasn't great plus what if taehyung would come out?

I ran to the side of the road and I saw a taxi approaching. I waved at it and it stopped.

After I gave the address to the driver I eventually completely broke down. The taxi driver awkwardly handed me a napkin, perhaps to dry my tears with. 'just let it go' she said in a sympathetic voice. She then turned the radio a bit louder, perhaps to make it even easier for me to cry without shame.

I arrived home, my eyes puffy and I felt tired from all the crying. I opened my fridge to get myself a bottle of soju. I poured myself a glass and took a big sip. I stared ahead while the memory filled my mind.

Flashback
4 years earlier

       'Will you marry me y/n?'

I first stared at the skyline in which a minute ago all the fireworks were lit. then I stared into the eyes of my loving boyfriend, but I gazed at him in incomprehension. We were having dinner at one of Seoul's most expensive rooftop restaurants. He said it was to celebrate our one year anniversary and I had never ever expected him to propose.

I didn't answer.

Too much taken by surpriseI guess. 

People around us were all waiting in anticipation. He had made it a real show with those fireworks and the champagne.

      'y/n' he asked partly impatient partly scared

      'I uh, it's so fast..... I can't say yes.' I answered and I knew how embarrassing this was, how painful.. how he was on one knee, the ring in his hand.

but I couldn't say yes.

Everyone around us awkwardly tried to resume their own conversations. He also stood up and sat on his chair. I took his hand but he immediately pulled back. I saw how angry and upset he was.

       'I am sorry' I said apologetically.

He balled his hands into fists. 'I treat you like a princess, I pay for your fathers health care, and you embarrass me like this?' 

I stared down while a tear rolled over my cheeks

        'I am sorry, I am just not ready to get married, I am 20 years old, we know each other only for a year, but I really do love you.. I just need some time.'

He shook his head and scoffed

       'I don't think the problem is that it's too fast y/n, I think you were just looking for a wealthy man to pay your fathers bills so you can do whatever you want. well this man isn't going to do that anymore. '

I only sat frozen as he continued his rant. Eventually he got up and walked away, he stopped when he stood next to me

        'I should have known you were just an ordinary gold digger.' the thing was that his voice did crack, showing me that he actually was hurt. Another tear rolled down my cheek as he stormed out.