My Everything (Testimony Prequel)

Chapter 12

April

"We lost the babyeh.."he said I looked at him sideways

"Anthony what'chu talm'bout I won't pregnant"I said he nodded his head

"Ya was you lost the babyeh when he shot ya in da the stomach and bae your stress level is through the roof"I said

I shook my trying to ignore the fact this might be true I wasn't pregnant God ain't blessed me with a baby yet

"Nah babe I won't pregnant God ain't bless us with one yet"I looked in his eyes noticing that he was telling the truth a lump formed in my throat

"No babyeh no no no I can't do nun right"I brought my knees to my chest and started crying

"I don't want to be bothered now"I said he sighed and kissed my forehead

"I'll check on you ta'morrow"he said leaving out

I ain't neva question God but just this once you took my mama my daddy I don't kno' where he is but I kno' he ain't alive my grandmother Mel and now my unborn child this is officially my breaking point it's official it's hard man I'm tired

I don't wanna be strong

I wanna be the scared vulnerable little girl I wanna be able to be normal and not have this handle everyone I'm tired of the bull shit and I just wanna run somewhere far away from everyone I want a real life everything bad happens to me I shouldn't be dealing with this I'm only 19

I looked at the ceiling

"God if ya dere fa' meh send meh a sign or sumn tell me life gonna get better that imma be good cause right now it seems like everything going sour I just wanna be able to sit down and relax without everyone being at my throat tryan ta' kill meh just help meh God please amen"I said I just smiled because I just want things ta' get better

That's all I want

August

I put out my blunt and sighed this is hard man I didn't even get to hold my own child let alone know what the baby was

I know April's going thru it I'm about to go see her right now I got out my car and walked inside the building going to her room she was just starting at the wall same thing she did yesterday

"Babyeh"I said waking over to her bed side

"Good morning August"she said I let out a small smile she's talking that's good

"Good morning babyeh"I kissed her forehead

"How are yo-"she cut me off

"August I wanna get out of here not the hospital per say but New Awlins I want to leave this place holds to many bad memories I lost to many people I want to kno' what it's like outside of New Awlins"she said looking at me

"We can go on a vacation babyeh it's whatever you want"I said she smiled a little and patted the bed next to her I carefully went over and sat down wrapping my arms around her I seen tears starting to fall out her eyes

"Babyeh I'm going crazy I told chu that but I think this is what set it off I think I'm going insane I can't catch a break I got mutha fuckers tryan ta' kill me I don' lost to many people I can't take it any mo' it gonna be one day I just snap and someone won't be living I can't believe this is all happening ta' me I'm only fucking nineteen and I have so much responsibility it hurts I don't wanna be strong no m-m-mo'"she broke down I rubbed her back and played in her hair as she cried in my chest I started singing to her

"I know how it be when you trying your best

But you turn around, and you got nothing to show for it

So you stay on your grind, tryna get to the shine

Even turn to crime, but how come I ain't made it yet?

I'm just like you (I know the feeling y'all), I been there too

I hope you feel me cause I, been through the pain

There ain't a difference, you and I are the same

Babyeh I was

Right there, right there, right there, right there

I was right there where you are I can't forget that I was

Right there, right there, right there, right there

Now I'm reaching for the stars but I remember I was

Right there, right there, right there

Babyeh I was

Right there, right there, right there

Getting money

Right there, right there, right there

Born and raised

Right there, right there, right there

I remember nights there, when I had to go to sleep, in the back of the Quick & Easy

Chilling on the boulevard, with them hardheaded niggas from the 7th ward

Had a chick in the Ville, who was down for a nigga that's real

Use to have fam in the Florida projects

That's why I'll never forget

I was right there"I sung to her she smiled at me

"I was right'chea wit'chu thru it all babyeh I luh ya ta' death we gonna be dere fa' each other cause I ain't going no wea' and chu ain't either just kno' babyeh I'm right hea'"I kissed her forehead

"I luh ya crimson chin ass to Anthony"she said I mushed her head and we laughed

"Nah real note tho we have 5 years down Fa'eva ta' go ya heard meh"she said I nodded

"I heard you babyeh to the moon and back"I pecked her lips several times

"I luh ya to babyeh Fa'eva and Always"she smiled that beautiful smile

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And scene

Awe they cute

Well that was our favorite couple guys
In the near future of course there will be another book but I got books on top of books in my drafts I gotta get to y'all just kno'

I'm so happy that y'all stuck with a bitch for this long ass journey and continue we have many more ta' come
My new book called Stereotype it is an Chris Brown Fan Fic and I hope y'all like it oh and stay tuned for the Epiloue
Chris Brown Without You in the MM

August's song he was singing was Right There

Luh y'all babes

Love,
         Jazzy