Why cant I just make something? Like arent artists suppose to have an imagination? Create something from nothing and then watch it grow into the biggest starting point in your career? Well, everything's been down hill recently.
My new job I just started must have been a joke if I just got in with my highschool portfolio, I used to be good in highschool I used to have the most wild imaginations.
What happened?
Well this next project is something that I can pick.
Mr.pollock, my boss, said he expects big things from me.
Not stressful at all.
I go to open up my sketch book, the old leather cover with my name carved into it just gives me a nostalgic feeling every time I see it.
But the love of what I used to have for this nostalgia is faint and fading away.
As I take a deep breathe and brush the feeling aside I sit there and stare at the blank page.
Tapping my pencil trying my hardest to brainstorm.
What topic should I pick?
Should I pick something that would pull a couple heart strings? Or maybe something like life and death? No too generic too...common.
This is harder then I thought it would be.
I sit there sadly as a tear wants to escape my eyes.
I do this almost every night, most imagination spikes near the AM hours of the morning.
Well, it used to back in highschool.
I let that lonely little tear run down my cheek as I wipe it away and sniffle.
I close my book that's been open for an hour with no markings of even trying to figure out what to draw.
I need some type of inspiration because modivation Isnt even something that is a problem anymore.
You would think when the worlds already in shambles that would be enough to be inspired about.
It's just not something my work could Express really I draw mostly animals and people when I feel like struggling with hands and noses.
My favorite is watercolor koi fish.
But anyway I should sleep soon.
Its 4:47am and I'm just tired from thinking way to hard.
I sigh and shake my head depressed once again.
I should get dressed I'll take a nap later it's almost time to start my daily routine anyways.
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My Darling Little Boy
Fiksi UmumThis story is about a young woman who one day comes across a dog pound when on a walk, trying to find some inspiration in her artwork. as she comes in they ask that she be aware of her surroundings, this made her a bit confused but replied with an o...
