Unexpected news

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TW: child loss/ miscarriage

Billie's pov

I wake up to Nova calling for me. I stand up and I feel like a little pop with a little bit of fluid. I brush it off and walk to Nova's room. I pick her up and take her downstairs. I put her on the floor and start to make some breakfast.

When Nova finishes her breakfast, she sits down on the floor while I take the chance to go to the bathroom. I go to the toilet but in my underwear there was some pink-ish fluid. I brush it off again and play with Nova.

A couple hours later

I go to the bathroom and saw blood in my underwear. I froze as I get flashbacks of Que kicking me in the stomach. I wrap my arm around my stomach and kept thinking of the worse

what if I had a miscarriage?

No no no! Billie you did not have a miscarriage this is all a dream and your baby is fine! I try to tell myself but it doesn't work.

I change my underwear and call my mom. My had shaking when I press call. "Hello Billie" Mom says when she answers. "H-hey mom" I say, my voice shaky. "What's the matter? It sounds like your going to cry?" Mom asks worried. "Umm...I'm bleeding..." I say holding in my tears.

"From where?" Mom asks. "In my underwear" I say as a tear falls down my face. "Omg" Mom says breathlessly. "I'm coming over" She says. I hung up and started to play with Nova. A couple minutes later I hear a knock at the door. I open it and it was mom. I close the door and hug her, crying into her shoulder while she rubs my back.

"Can you show me?" She asks. I take her into the bathroom and she sees my underwear with blood in it. She covers her mouth and I call my midwife. I tell her what happened and she told me to go into the hospital.

I text Finneas and tell him that he needs to look after Nova and he said that it was ok. I drive to Finneas' house and knock on the door. He takes Nova inside and I get back into the car. I drive to the hospital, the car ride was silent.

"Billie, just so you know that if it is what we think it is, its not your fault" Mom says. A few tears fall down my face when she said that. I wipe my tears, put my hood up and we walk into the hospital. We get called in by my midwife and we walk to her room.

I sit on the bed and she takes a few tests like my blood test, an ultrasound and she checked the heart beat but there was no heartbeat. I tried my best not to cry but a few tears managed to escape.

"I am so so so sorry Billie but the baby has passed." She said. I look down and start crying. I know I was only 12 weeks pregnant but I had already gone through a lot. That baby was keeping me going but now its gone. All because of Que. A rush of anger goes through my body which makes me bite my lip and close my hand into a tight fist. All I wanted to do was go home and murder Que.

The midwife and mom talk about what happened. The midwife hugged me before we leave. I get into the car and drive home. Mom was trying to comfort me but all I want to do is cry and be alone. I drive to my parents house and drop mom off. I step of the gas and drive back home.

I pull up to my driveway and run into the house, slamming the door behind me. I throw shit around and let my anger out. I fall onto the floor and cry. I cried and cried and cried until I fell asleep.

I woke up to Finneas knocking on my door. I open it and he hugs me. I really needed that hug. Nova came running behind him and hugged my leg. I pick her up and kiss her cheek. We talk a little until it got late.

I get Nova ready for bed and we got into my bed and fell asleep while cuddling.