Broken Souls

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(A/N so this is depressing chapter I wrote when I wanted to cry. This chapter may contain triggers. I just wanted a angst filled and creepy stiles fanfic. I couldn't find it so I wrote it)

STILES POV

It's been 3 months of ignorance. 3 months of feeling worthless. 3 months since I had any human contact. 3 months of craziness. 3 months since the fight I had with pack. 3 months since I made my decision.

My decision is made. I just need a closure. I just want to spend my last day with my dad. I would have gone to say goodbye to my pack but they went to spend summer vacations to Bali. Which btw was my idea.

So I get up and head downstairs to make last breakfast for dad and me.
I was just finishing making 7th pancake when dad came out in his uniform

"Sorry kiddo. There is an emergency at the station but I promise you that I will make it up to you tommorow"dad said as he wore his jacket and shoes and with that he left.

He left me all alone, again, just like everyone else has left me all alone. Like mom, like the pack and like I will leave them except they won't be alone.

But this won't stop me from what I am going to do. This just gave me one more reason to do what I am going to do.

I just have to do some last things. I burnt all of my pictures and destroyed every video I was in. The reason for this is simple. I don't want to be remembered. Because if they remember me they will only think of me as the weak annoying boy who was the reason their friend died. And I don't want to be remembered as that.

I know that they made my life hell. They have put me through so much torture and abuse. They never got physical. But again physical pain is nothing as compared to mental pain.

I loved all of them so much and gave them everything I could have given them. I gave them all my light but never got it back from them. Slowly all my light was with them and I was left with darkness.

But let me tell you. Darkness is not a bad thing. When you are tired and just want to sleep darkness provides you comfort. When lights get too bright darkness is your escape. When the daylight heat is burning you darkness provides you shelter.

I feel darkness is misinterpreted. Just like me. Every coin has 2 sides which are very important for maintaining balance. Dark and light are two sides of a coin.

But let me tell you balance is overrated. Sometimes all you need is one side of the coin. Sure we all have our own demons but we keep them inside us. But sometimes all that is needed is to unleash the demons within us and let them consume ourselves

After all the things I had to do were over I went to dad's safe ,took his gun grabbed the keys to my jeep and headed for the abandoned building I found 3 months ago.

I left my jeep far from the building and walked towards it. I went and sat on the swing. The cold wind brushed pass me giving me goosebumps.
Suddenly a black figure came towards me from the main entrance of the building. I took out my gun and pointed it at my head. The black figure held my hand and we both put our fingers on the trigger. I closed my eyes not because of feeling terrified but because of the relief I felt because all the pain will soon be over.

At the count of 3 we pulled the trigger