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chapter 13: memories of the past

-Shizu 5 years old-

Moma, when is daddy coming home? "He's not coming home sweetie, he went somewhere far away in the sky." But I want to see daddy. "I know you do honey, but it's just me you and your sister now, alright." Yeah. "Ok now lets go back inside."

-Shizu 8 years old-

"Mommy, Shizu doesn't want to share." Im reading a manga. "Shizu read the manga to your sister." Ok~

-Shizu 11 years old-

"Shizu!!! Im taking your sister to the contest alright!" Ok! This is a beauty contest that my sister is currently in right now. But I didn't want to go. (This is where it all started, when her sister won the contest. She was entered into more and more and her mother started ignoring her, telling her to clean the house now because she was tooo busy with her little sister). "Where back!! Shizu come down here!!" Coming! I wonder what happened? I thought to myself. "Your sister won!!!" "That's great Ao!" "Yup". "You have another pagent comming up I hope you ready!" "Im ready." said Ao.

Shizu 14 years old

"You ready Ao?" Said her mother "I am all ready"said Ao.  OoO You look soooo pretty little sis, loving the new style. " Really?" "Yea."come on Ao it's almost time!!" "Alright i'm coming." "We'll be back!" "See you later" "Oh, Shizu can you clean the house we have guests coming over. And while your at it prepare dinner." Ok.

It's been like this ever since Ao started entering contests... it's alright, but I don't know how long I can keep this up. I have entrance exams coming up. Oh well let's just see how this plays out. I started ignoring people in school, the only reason why is because when I was in elementary school, I got bullied, then I started reading books to pass the time. And now in middle school, i'm socially left out. Im what you call a lone wolf now a days. I've had a freind before but she just betrayed me. So, I have decide not to keep anyone close to me except for my sister. I don't feel like I have any emotions anymore, I feel like there were stomped on and thrown out the window. I feel so empty. Nothings wrong with me, it's just I don't want to be betrayed again, I don't want to keep thinking about people. That's what I thought at least, I still care for my sister, not much for my mother anymore... Ever since dad died she was more out of it than normal. But now that Ao is in these contests, she started getting back to reality,and not in her own world. But, ever since that day she hasn't really been paying attention to me. All she does is give me orders. I know i'm not great at many things but it's the least I could do to try to make her smile, right?