Harry's P.O.V.
"You like Mr. Tomlinson?" Liam yells when we sit down on my couch."
"It sounds bad when you say it like that." I tell him with a sigh.
"Hey, I think it's great that he likes someone." Niall defends me.
"Yeah, well I think it's pretty cool that you like the English teacher. He's attractive." Zayn says while giving me a smirk.
That only causes him to get smack on the back of the head by Liam.
"Oh, come on. Even you can admit that Mr. Tomlinson is attractive." Zayn says while looking at Liam.
"Well, yeah, he is, but do you really think Harry would be able to get a teacher?" Liam asks.
"I'm right here," I tell them with a wtf look on my face.
"Hell yeah, Harry can get anybody, and it seems like Mr. Tomlinson is into Harry as well." Niall says with a smirk.
"Are you kidding me?" Liam asks with a shocked face.
I look down at my hands slightly embarrassed, cause I didn't know what to say. It was true, he was into me.
"Well, aren't you going to tell us why or how you know he's into you?" Liam asks while looking at me.
"Well, it's just what he said to me, that I'm pretty damn sure that he likes me." I say while shrugging my shoulders.
I feel like we're a bunch of school girls, sitting here gossiping about people we like.
I'm a man! and even though I am gay, I refuse to act like a girl. Sometimes you can't even tell if a guys gay, because people are so stereotypical of gays. They thinks their going to dress in girls clothes, and wear makeup, and have high pitched voices, but in this case, it's just me. I'm the same person I've been. I just like the same sex. Other than that, nothing has changed about me, and nothing will change.
I don't know why it took, Louis coming into my life for my to realize that I'm gay. It's strange, I should have know just by the feeling in my stomach that I would get when Louis would be around me that I am into guys, I don't know if I should take his offer? Or if I should tell him what I want, and we have to make an agreement of some short so that neither of us is getting screwed over.
I want him to prove to me, other than offering me sex, that he is going to be worth my time, and that he isn't going to be with me just for the sex. I just want a normal relationship, not all physical.
I just want to matter to someone. I know that I matter to my friend's, and I'm happy that they all have people their dating, but I want a regular relationship like that, but Louis isn't a normal person. He's special, and I want everything we have, and are going to have be special.
I refuse to get fucked over.
I look around and Liam, and Zayn are cuddled on the couch, talking, and watching tv.
Niall is sitting over on the couch texting Josh, I would imagine.
They all have someone, and are happy. I would like to have something that real, and I don't know if I will be able to have something real if I am dating a teacher.
I mean, we wouldn't be able to go out into public together, and that would just make me wish that I was dating someone that I could be seen with.
I don't understand why I'm even thinking about dating him, when I don't even know if he want's a relationship like that. Or if it would all just be physical, with no love tied to it? I don't even know what I'm in for.
I just want to be happy with someone! Is that too fucking hard to ask? Ugh.
"Hey, Harry, you ok over there? You're thinking so hard smokes coming out of your ears." Zayn says with a chuckle.
I look at him with a confused look.
"What?" I asked him even more confused.
"You thinking about Mr. Tomlinson?" Niall asked me with a caring look.
I looked down at my fingers, and sighed deeply.
"Yeah, a little bit." I whisper.
"What's going on buddy? You seem stressed, and upset." Liam says while sitting up a little bit more.
"I don't know, I'm just sitting here looking at you guys happy, and I'm wondering if I'll ever get to be happy. I know I like Mr. Tomlinson, but I don't know if he likes me, like a boyfriend, or if he likes me, and wants me physically. I don't want something just physical. I want something real. I want to be able to go out into public with him, and do what normal couples do, but I can't do that cause he's a teacher, and I'm his student, and this whole thing is illegal. He could get into so much trouble even thinking of me. I just want to be happy, like all of you." I say with a big sigh, and looking at all of them with their concerned faces.
"How long have you been thinking like this?" Liam asks me concerned.
"Ever since we started watching the movie, I was just looking at all of you smiling and talking, and I just feel left out." I tell them honestly.
"We're sorry, we didn't know you felt that way about us." Liam says with furrowed eyebrows.
"No, I'm happy you're all happy." I tell them frantically, not knowing if they thought I wasn't happy for them.
"We know you're happy for us. You just look really bummed out." Niall says with a small smile.
"Yeah, well maybe you should talk to Mr. Tomlinson about your feelings tomorrow. Let him know how he's making you feel." Liam says with a smile.
"That sounds like a good idea." I tell them.
"Hey, do you mind if we stay the night? We're having too much fun here, and we don't want to go home yet." Liam asks with the biggest smile he can conjure up.
"Sure." I tell them with a shrug.
I'm going to do it. Tomorrow I am going to tell Mr. Tomlinson how I feel, and I am not going to back out!
A.N. Ok, so this is kinda just a filler, I hope you guys like it! I know, Harry was acting like a girl, but you know what? Who the hell cares? Lol enjoy!
